Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase. It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions. This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...
When you get caught up in the trivialities of life, when you are tired to your core, when you endlessly run errands, do daily chores and at the end of it all your head is busting with headache you see something and it inspires. It inspires you to be, to breathe. Today my muse has been a film “Zindgai naa milegi dobara” yes I am inspired. At first I watched this film to kill my time in the evening after having a much delayed lunch. Then the movie’s location asked me stay on and then finally the message of the film “to live in the present moment” inspired me. To experience the aliveness of your life you don’t have to go Spain or do deep sea diving or jump from 15,000 ft but all you need to do is to breathe and feel the life that is within you. Then the sun rays titillating your face, a flower in your balcony, laughter of a child, stars, moon in full bloom are all the miracles of life unfolding in front of you all the time. They could inspire you but you have to be there to look...