Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase. It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions. This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...
It is considered a blessing to be given some time alone to think, to analyze of what is there or what is not there. Although quite contrary to the common belief that I am a habitual thinker, I am not. Nevertheless, once you have ridden the horse of presence you cannot be lost in thoughts because your mental wiring has changed to such a great extent that it is difficult to be lost in thoughts anymore. Thoughts or thinking are the main cause of human suffering. If you notice your mind and thoughts you will realize that our mind is actually working in two modes, one in the past and second in the future. The past can be an hour ago, two days ago or even twenty years ago and we are constantly thinking about things that did or did not happened to us, what somebody said or didn’t say to us. Sometimes when we have an argument, its film keeps on playing in our mind for days, even though that event has subsided. Or there could be some collection of our memories...