Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase. It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions. This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...
As my PC was opening up today, in my usual restlessness I clicked and started three programs simultaneously so as a consequence everything got stuck; after a couple of minutes finally everything started one by one. I suddenly realized that this is exactly what I do in my life; I want everything in my life to appear in a second and I simply do not possess the “patience for waiting”. Then what comes out as a result is more waiting spiced up with frustration, a pitfall with humans. It has become a routine with me for not being an irregular at the blog; by the way it is one of the things which I truly cherish in my life. Yet my unusually new and erratic sleep patterns developed very recently are taking over my most relaxing activity, the blog. I get two to three deep sleep calls lasting from 5 to 40 minutes; the first one around 5 pm, the second one between 6 to 7 pm and the last but not least one at exactly 9 pm. The sleep which I encounter at these times is unusual because I feel a...