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My Two Cents

Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase.   It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions.  This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...

Belated Eid Mubarak!

This Eid, I pray that all of us be blessed with Allah’s Mercy and Forgiveness. I pray that all of us live in peace, harmony and prosperity. With so much pain and despair revolving around Muslims these days that it becomes difficult to celebrate Eid and feel truly joyous. Even though you want to ignore or at least forget for a while the brutality of war, yet it is not easy. It is not easy to ignore the crying faces of children and all the bloodshed. Yet we move on, with deepest prayers in our hearts that Allah bestow us with His divine forgiveness. And so it is... Ameen! Once again Eid Mubarak! Sonya Syed. (Day 487)

Love, is it?

Since early hours of yesterday I had a feeling that I am missing something or someone badly, life seemed meaningless as if there is no inspiration left in me. I felt depressed and extremely torpid and lethargic; feelings of loneliness and despair were all over resulting in irritability. I was unable to concentrate on anything and I thought that I am completely lost in this world. Food lost its attraction, although I had been fasting yet I didn’t have any inclination to eat or even looking at food. Apparently, these symptoms point towards failure in romantic pursuit. However, what was alarming that there was neither any pursuing nor the factor of being pursued. It was after the Iftaari (breaking of fast) I had to go to a nearby mall and for some strange reason I felt a pull towards a Cinnabon café   where they made extremely delicious cinnamon rolls, I ordered my favorite chocolate roll and a cup of iced mocha (which was extremely bitter, so better try mocha frap...