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My Two Cents

Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase.   It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions.  This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...

Serendipity

Something absolutely magical happened with me today and I very much would like to share it will all of you. I bought a clothing material for myself few days ago and wanted to stitch it in a particular design; however, I needed a sample picture of that design and the only way I could get that was from the internet. But as usual due to my laziness I was reluctant to open my PC, surf the net and take the print out. Today, in the afternoon as I came out of my room I saw on the dining table latest copy of an exclusive magazine which had that particular design and many others. The amazing or spooky part is that no one in the house has either bought or ordered that magazine yet its brand new issue in the most pristine condition was just lying in our garage. All I could say is that it has fallen directly from the sky, right into my lap. At first I was trying to figure out how this has happened because nobody else besides me both in my family and in friends circle was aware th...

Joy

What a day I had, a beautiful one on the exterior but within I lacked the kick, the energy and most of the time my concentration. But now as I sit before my PC with the intention of connecting with you all I could sense in myself a glimpse of peace especially after I had my good o’le cup of cold coffee. As I inscribe these words, light cold breeze is titillating my face and the quietude outside is enthralling the mind. So I take two deep breadths and try my best to bring focus on the matter at hand. Its been a week where I have met new faces and fortunately the experiences of their proximity is a positive one as well. However, few old faces remain engraved in mind and I only wonder when and how would I be able to meet them, if I meet them at all. Has anyone of you experienced ten emotions in one go, I think not and to be honest it is neither a wonderful feeling. As we grow up our perspective alters completely about many of the things which we once considered crucial or vita...

Such a relief!!!

It is such an enormous relief to finally get over with the test and all the preparations which goes along with it. Although this test was no university or college examination however it is about a subject which I have studied on my very own initiative and now I await as to what might the future holds for me. Sometimes the hindrances of time and space are dissolved; even though we are not in the proximity of some people yet whenever either or both of us want we could be together and then there is no need for our physical presence, just being with someone in mind and spirit suffices. I have experienced this wonder with my mother, my other family members and friends and every time I go through it I cannot but feel energized and peaceful. Weather is changing quietly, the heat, the humidity of day and night is transforming into a pleasant wintry season. It is now the time when woollies are taken out from the storage; a time when men on handcarts in the street outside our homes would call ...

Day 138/139

It’s the most awaited day tomorrow and I have butterflies in my stomach, coupled with anxiety pangs. It is weird that even after spending a lifetime with tests and exams one still become anxious-nervous. I have been not at all looking forward for my test day yet it is finally here; I would definitely need all your prayers. I had the most gastronomic delight in lunch today and all its credit goes to my Mom who prepared the most delicious prawn biryani. Of course I ate beyond my normal limits and as a consequence I am all relaxed and laid-back in body but my mind is far away from being relaxed. I need to revise everything and I need energy, the irony is I cant take coffee or my favourite green tea as it would leave me in insomnia- so God Bless me!! Sorry for this brief post and impersonal post but the time calls for other commitments as well, so I would take your leave darlings… Good Evening and take care….. Sonya. (Day 138/139)