Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase. It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions. This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...
For quite some time I deliberately refrained from talking about negative things with my friends. Neither I allowed them nor did I give myself the liberty to discuss problematic situations. I believe that the more you focus on something with all your energy the more it will become your reality. Focus on good things and be grateful and you would receive more of the same. However, yesterday it occurred to me that when we share something painful with our friends its purpose is not to spread negativity rather its aim is to share and get rid of all that is distressing. We do need to bring out what is bothering us or else it will keep bubbling, causing far more damage. Our real friends are not only our companions but they perform many roles in our life. If we are doing something harmful then they become our parents and stop us from acting stupid. When we have heartbreak our friend nurses our wounds with care. When we need to share our secrets and beautiful moments they become...