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My Two Cents

Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase.   It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions.  This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...

Routines

Long working days with erratic sleeping habits could continue smoothly for a little while only and then comes the spiraling down period. The most crucial aspect of life: sleep , when gets ignored or bullied it could give some unhealthy results and this is what happened in my case. I, for so long have been going to sleep pass the due bedtime and as a consequence I am unable to concentrate or focus on any thing now, my taste buds are upset and my memory is affected as well; most of the time I feel drowsy or just want to sleep. So please if any of you does the same thing with your sleep then do take care of yourself. All these apparently little things are not that inconsequential after all, because of the seemingly trivial things in life could prove vital to your existence. I have a burning desire to learn playing a guitar yet I could not find an appropriate teacher. It is such an irony that whenever we want something desperately in our lives it drifts farther away from us, may be our d...

Thank you!!

THANK YOU ALL SO VERY MUCH FOR ALL YOU WARM WISHES….. There is need, there is exhaustion, eyes are heavy with sleep yet there is no desire to go to bed rather you would just want to waste time and hang around without any reason; a perfect example of self-torture. Being sane and an adult why do I need to behave in such a ridiculous way I cannot understand. But then there are our idiotic moments where we bully our common sense and inner voice and follow arduously whatever our thinking mind tells us. Yesterday has been so busy and fun; besides this was first my birthday which I truly enjoyed, of course it was nothing glamorous but a simple and quite dinner with family. Nevertheless, the peace and enthusiasm within me extended beyond all limits. And I cannot thank God enough for all that He has blessed me with...THANK YOU, THANK YOU!!!!   I have just read an incredible passage/ interview of my favourite writer Eckhart Tolle so I would like to share it with all you. “ Eckhart on Unem...

Twist & turns

Life takes such unexpected twist and turn, you expect one thing and something completely different falls in your lap. Although these changes appears unwarranted on the first look however as and when the time moves on one begin to realize that whatever happened is perfect and nothing else is relevant. We look for answers to some of our most dreaded questions in all the places which one could comprehend  not knowing that all the replies to all that is lie within or so very near us. I too have been searching for some answers, for some clarity, and today out of blue where I least expected my answers started to come through; nevertheless, a little more time is needed to clear all the fog. Robot starring Aishwarya Rai Bachchan and Rajnikant has been released and it’s been declared a phenomenal hit with record breaking business. For every film which does well or very well at the box-office is always proclaimed by the media or marketing pundits to have broken all the previous recor...

Day 134

Multitasking could never be a wise option though at times it seems like the only feasible option. So I begin writing this post with ten other things in my mind to complete along. Then the fear of compromising on the quality as well as missing out on few of the tasks becomes a major concern. I have seen few individuals who possess the talent of multi-tasking they say their mind could work on two things simultaneously however they never told me about the quality of the outcome of such works. Finally I have had it! I am nervous anxious of the multi chores so I take 2-3 deep breaths, organize myself, I attend to that which is most important and then follow all of it gradually. I sincerely hope to get somewhere with this new approach. For this reason this post takes precedence of everything else as it is not merely a forum of self expression but a commitment, a discipline and so it shall be attended on the primary basis. Following this would be my preparation for the test which shall com...