Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase. It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions. This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...
Dearest Abbu, " I ts been two years from today when you completed your journey in this world and left us to meet your Creator to experience something wonderful. In an instant I felt a thousand emotions in my heart for you and amazingly there was not a bit of depression or sadness, a few tears though which tried to find their way out. Nevertheless in the background I felt immense peace, joy and love because I know for sure that you are in the best place. Since last week I was extremely confused and restless for no particular reason, I cried for half an hour at night on two consecutive days for no apparent cause. In my dreams I saw myself giving healing to my cousins/ sisters Aleyna, Marrium, Kanwal, Aiman. Two days ago I saw you very young and looking handsome, as usual, in my dreams. I could not understand as to what was happening to me because I could not feel any pain or grief or depression but now it all makes sense ...