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My Two Cents

Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase.   It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions.  This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...

Thin, thin where have you been?

Finally after not trying really really hard and leaving everything as it is I am slowly coming out of my strange zone that I was living in for last few days.  I have just ordered my new keyboard that would be arriving within couple of hours. There is a nice computer shop near my home, they are doing a great service to humanity by delivering accessories at your doorstep. It’s not anything fancy, just a simple keyboard because the one I am currently using has lost its control, yup the control key is not working anymore, @ and “’’ have also exchanged their places. It is such a relief of not bothering yourself or anyone else to buy anything, a phone call and life’s problem get solved instantly. It is also true that in this fast paced world I am still stuck upon my good old fashioned PC and do not prefer to work on the laptop. First of all I really don’t understand why on earth we call it laptop; it hardly ever sits properly on the top of our laps. At work la...

Midnight snack

Even with the best of my efforts I am unable to sleep, thoughts are rolling in mind- few with reason while others repetitive and useless. So I decided to fully acknowledge my insomnia, and what is a better realization then to give your scattered thoughts a platform to be expressed effectively then to write this post and ventilate what is hidden. For some time I have been thinking about unconditional love, love that does not need anything in return but only giving to other(s). This kind of love has been encouraged by many spiritual teachers and believed that this is the only way to protect us from living a sad and miserable life. Nevertheless, when you meet the real people in the real world and the way they push your buttons then the only thing you want to do is to teach them a lesson for good- give them a taste of their own medicine. My friend and I were talking about the same thing and she said that unconditional love and peace are merely the concept of west becaus...