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My Two Cents

Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase.   It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions.  This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...

Work in progress

Sometimes what we see is not the truth, and sometimes the truth cannot be seen. Many times we judge people based on their apparent outlook, we don’t really inquire about the truth, rather we settle on the evidence of what is presented in front of our eyes. It was my chemistry class I believe, there was a group of bright girls in my class. They were always together, having fun and studying. My only connection with them was our routine greetings, I always wanted to befriend them but for some reason our acquaintance never reached a point friendship. Then one fine day we were all sitting together, of course no body was talking to me, I opened my favorite chips packet (Slims, well-known among karachites). Everybody suddenly looked at me, I offered them my chips and within few seconds we all were chatting and laughing our lungs out. It seemed as if a wall was broken between us and all the barriers were removed. Later the girls told me that due to my strangely reserved att...

Exercise- what an idea sirjee!

Writing, deleting, again writing and again deleting. That’s how I am dealing with today’s blog. Actually the problem is, what I want to write is not appropriate to write under the current circumstances as it might cause an uproar. So I prefer to stick with something safe and diplomatic. Yesterday after a long period of convincing myself, I finally got on the treadmill. My feet were heavy and I was sleepy, still I went ahead with my decision. It was only ten minutes into the walk but it seemed that I have been walking for 20 years, time seemed to have stopped. I hated it! Still I continued, and as I walking on that dreaded machine I blamed everyone in my life for making me do this miserable thing. My feet were sour and stiff. Then it happened, somewhere around the ten-minute mark. The heart opened up, the lungs expanded, and the legs loosened. My eyes suddenly sparked by little tears of gratitude and awareness: I AM ALIVE. I get to be alive! In a human body! I get to ...