Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase. It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions. This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...
It’s the most awaited day tomorrow and I have butterflies in my stomach, coupled with anxiety pangs. It is weird that even after spending a lifetime with tests and exams one still become anxious-nervous. I have been not at all looking forward for my test day yet it is finally here; I would definitely need all your prayers.
I had the most gastronomic delight in lunch today and all its credit goes to my Mom who prepared the most delicious prawn biryani. Of course I ate beyond my normal limits and as a consequence I am all relaxed and laid-back in body but my mind is far away from being relaxed. I need to revise everything and I need energy, the irony is I cant take coffee or my favourite green tea as it would leave me in insomnia- so God Bless me!!
Sorry for this brief post and impersonal post but the time calls for other commitments as well, so I would take your leave darlings…
Good Evening and take care…..
Sonya. (Day 138/139)
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