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Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase.   It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions.  This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...

Day 35

I was speaking with a lady yesterday who advised me to pay attention to my skin, hair as much as possible before I get married and marriage I could relax because then sab chalta hai i.e. anything and everything goes then. If you advise any married woman to look after herself there is always a routine reply ab iss ki kiya zaroorat hai . Since I am on the other side of fence I am unable to comprehend the truth behind these statements although there is huge pressure on me from all corners to cross over to the wonderland of matrimony. Still these are nonetheless interesting points to ponder particularly when Valentines Day is around. I would only try to limit my views to fair-sex since I have no precise idea how guys feel about this issue. I would welcome any thoughts though. Well it’s true that quite a few times I have seen brides-to-be to exercise regularly, to look after themselves in every possible way before getting marriage and once the wedding bells ring they loose interest or to...

Day 33/34

One thought attracts similar more thoughts; a discussion about someone else’s childhood magnetically attracts our own early life experiences. I am not much of a nostalgic person anymore I find it difficult to dwell in my past. I don’t miss my childhood or school days or college life or any other instances of past, I guess I have exorcised the ghost of memories or at least it does not come to me with intensity. But it’s nice to wonder onto memory lane sometimes; my childhood was quite simple and straightforward however being the only child had some attachments. I had one family friend to play with but she could not be always there so I got engulfed in my own world. I hardly played with dolls, I had a habit of setting up a mini tent in our living room and I used to live in it for days. Then mostly it was cooking time with my friend, we cooked rice and chapatti on small sand stoves. Another favourite was playing with a secretarial case that my dad got for me; it had the cutest phone, car...

Day 32

Dark sky, slightly chilled air, frequent light rain is the perfect recipe of my favourite day. This time disappearance from the scene is not due sluggishness or indiscipline, rather I consciously abstained from writing because my vibes or energy was not quiet positive and it is only unfair to spread negativity. Past few days, as Pakistanis we have heard some of the appalling news of injustice, ridicule and torment. There is no point in repeating or discussing them any further since all the efforts of such sort would not bring any benefit to anyone, besides we do not have power to change anything simply by speaking about the problems so it is better to stick with SOMEONE who absolutely possess the Power to bring any change and the modus operandi to invoke that Power is to pray as much as possible. Dear Anonymous, as much as I would love to elaborate on the topics nevertheless the vastness and explanation those subjects require exceed my writing capability and I fear that I might not b...

Day 31

Bright and sunny, always help to get a good start for any day. Sun invoke and elevates something inside our system giving us absolute joy and freshness; it’s a very subtle feeling and could only be experienced if we take a minute, take a breath and absorb the light. I was having a tête-à-tête with myself and with the sole intention to challenge myself I asked me, what would be your ultimate dream or wish Sonya ? Honestly I’m not very much of a spendthrift but it was a challenge so I decided that I should give it ago. I have 2 rather 1 ultimate dreams/wishes. Primary and the most significant wish is to have peace, love and joy for myself, my family and friends and for everyone around me. Seeing people happy and healthy just makes my joy multiplied by tenfold. And now the secondary wish is to have at least 8-10 bedroom house in Switzerland it can be in Geneva, Bern or Zurich for my family vacations. Having said it aloud, my mom got a bit concerned for my mental health but tried her...

Day 30

Before beginning I would like to thank everyone from the depth of my heart who takes out time to read my blog, who email me, and who encourage me. It’s extremely fulfilling to know that I am able to contribute in some way. Once again Thank You!!! Mondays are usually devoid of enthusiasm but the pace of activity we have to keep up with compels us to get in the stream of life as quickly as possible. For me the best start is with good breakfast which always consist of roti (wheat pancakes) and a curry of any kind and a cup of cold coffee. I must admit that it sounds bizarre to have cold coffee even in winters but this is what is. Delicious as this breakfast is, also creates trouble for me during my out of country visits. The very first time I travelled with my dad to USA was a travelling nightmare, food wise. Although Pakistani food was served during our flights but the breakfast was the real deal breaker. I just cannot stand bread, butter and cereals I needed a complete meal, so for 2 ...

Day 29

Morality, humanity, values, justice are all seem to become a part of ancient history; nevertheless, at times we do get the opportunity to witness some remnants of these traits otherwise the moral fiber of our society is shredding into pieces. Where are we heading as a nation, I wonder? Is this the kind of country that we would bequeath to our children, I think not. I intensely wanted to escape to unknown destination where all is peace and prosperity. As a lawyer I am ashamed that’s all I could say. History is filled with tales of the nations which were destroyed due to their transgressions and it is terrifying to witness the same signs in Pakistan. Norms of natural justice and the laws of Universe are always working in precise fashion, no exception. The Effect could never contradict the Cause, the Universal laws or God’s law is similar to a giant computer where we could only download the documents which we have uploaded. Is it possible to harvest rice when we seeded pineapple? I...

Day 28

Impossible! For some strange reason I wanted to begin writing today with this particular word. Although in my life all things have been made possible by an unseen Power. Lots of activity in the foreground but morning lethargy has been in the background. It is said that most of the time we feel lethargic there is either indisposition or some pending emotional issue which requires our immediate attention. Fortunately for me the latter is true, there is major reading & writing to do academically and to begin anywhere I need to sit in front of 14.1’’ notebook screen for straight 3-4 hours something which I am not really ecstatic about. I would elaborate on this in near future, InshaAllah. The work keeps on piling up deadlines are to be made and my mortal system seems to take a back seat. The mammoth task overwhelms me. But one thing I know for sure once I get initial grip on the matter everything else would fall into its place automatically. The first step! Is all what it takes. Tru...