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Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase.   It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions.  This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...

Day 45

There is nothing to write, nothing to discuss, nothing to reminisce just plain idle mind with no inflow of thoughts. Contemporary gadgets are there to occupy the idle mind but subsequently it all reaches a threshold and we become immune to its enchantment, its not alluring any longer. Night is falling in rather hastily yet there is no inclination to repose. Nevertheless, time presses us to give in and let sleep does it wonders. Morning, yes morning would afresh the brain cells, give them the required zest. With the hope to have an active, positive yet creative day. Love and sweet dreams for all………. Sonya.

Masking/ Unmasking

Is it reasonable to dislike something to dissect or scrutinize negative aspects of anything? Or is it if we observe negative then only we would be in a position to infer what positive is and what positive looks like. If this is the case then things are known by their opposites. Only darkness of night would make us realize the importance of sunshine. So in a way Bad is fine because it helps us to recognize Good . Reading about someone else’s persona urged me to take a hard look on my own public demeanour. To be honest I am in the distant and aloof category; to get out there, do my job, give it the desired input, pack my bag and straight back to home. No interference with others, except for courtesy reasons. Certainly if approached for a personal moment from the other, I shall be considerate but never the initiator. This modus operandi was adopted when I decided to become a lawyer, since law is male dominated thus to stay out of trouble, to survive, to learn and to be taken seriou...

Agatha Christie

Unnecessary worries sprout when the basic principles of prudence and common sense are disregarded. May this never happen to anyone of us, Amen! Past few days have been long and nights were lame, although there was so much to express but sitting in front of 14’’ screen or TV became nauseas and almost unbearable with the only urge to get some decent sleep. So instead of gawking at screen I preferred to shift my focus on books. No philosophical or intellectual wish-wash rather I opted for my personal favourite genre of murder mystery, and there is no better choice then to go for Agatha Christie’s classic “ The Mystery of the Blue Train ”. Agatha Christie is synonymous with England. Her quintessential “English” characters offer a charming view of a bygone era when people sat down to tea in the afternoon, tended roses in their gardens and where village life provided all the scandal one could ever want to hear; with glamorous characters, exquisite hotels and expensive trains ...

Lazy Sundays

Sunday morning sets in motion a little late than usual followed by an equally belated breakfast and then lunch. The evening invites bright yellowish sun radiant in sky and its rays nourishing every being upon which its cascades itself. Karachi’s climate is changing rapidly from chilly to warmish with frequent cold breeze, warm clothing is being returned to the storage. Voices of children playing cricket outdoors instils a sense of life. Activity level gets a bit accelerated with the aroma of tea and deli in the air. Since I am not much of a tea drinker so it is not possible for me to elucidate on the qualities of tea, my forte is coffee. Although at times I only sheepishly admit my coffee drinking ritual because for some strange reason coffee is considered as an elite beverage and people assume that I am some kind of a prima donna whose tastes simply are too high to be met. Whenever I asked my Dad to bring me some coffee jars he would invariably inquire from me as to why and how I sta...

12th Rabi al Awwal - My Spiritual Journey

12th Rabi al Awwal, one of the most auspicious day for the entire humanity that existed or are existing or would ever exist. Yes, I am not limiting the beauty of this day for Muslims but it is expanded for the whole human kind whatsoever be their religious believes. This is the day when we Muslims celebrate the birth of our beloved Prophet Muhammad (May Peace Be Upon Him), who was born to Hazrat Abdullah and Bibi Aaminah on the 12th of the month Rabi al Awwal i.e. approximately August 570 C.E. This day is celebrated by praying, reciting Quran and Durood Shareef as much as possible. Prophet Muhammad (May Peace Be Upon Him) was the one for whom the entire universe was created, all gifts from Allah, His Divine Mercy, Peace, Love, Knowledge, Wisdom, Discernment were first showered upon Prophet Muhammad (May Peace Be Upon Him) and then those gifts were distributed through him to others, to us. If you would like to enhance your knowledge about Prophet Muhammad (May Peace Be Upon Him) Quran ...

Competition

Whoopie!!! I made it to the 40th Day.. Taking 3 cups of green tea a day is taking its toll on my sleep patterns, nights are mostly restless and in case I manage to sleep it is short termed and disturbed. Negligence especially when done deliberately shall always generate severe consequences. No error can be rectified unless we acknowledge a mistake as a mistake. Illness can’t be cured if we deny its very presence. Would escaping a problem ever help, I think not. I read somewhere that parents these days are opting for unique names for their children. The psychologists conducting this study explain the rationale behind this trend is that parents now want their children to have individuality and to stand out from the rest of the crowd. However, psychologists fear that this trend would also lead to narcissism, i.e. an abnormal and excessive love and admiration for oneself. In yester years parents were more inclined toward giving their children most popular names of the time and this t...

What is True Forgiveness?

Stillness and solitude of night for some strange reason instigate the thinking process; ideas become clear expression become lucid. As we become noiseless both from within and outside we could come across answers to questions that we have asked God at some point in our lives when things didn’t work the way we have wished for. Consequently for a brief moment, a door to consciousness opens up and out of the blue we stumble across the missing pieces of puzzle. On occasions when I was confident either personally or professionally that I will definitely get a certain thing but then I had an entirely different outcome. Of course when things do not turn out the way we wanted them to it upsets us we ask questions and want to understand God’s objective. Today I received answers to some of my pending questions. There were certain people who were fully aware of my professional capabilities, my sincerity and dedication towards my work and above all the excellent rapport that I had with them yet ...