Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase. It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions. This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...
I wonder what would become of my sleep tonight; I made myself a cup of cold black coffee with no particular reason just felt like doing it. Now mind is wondering in infinity and there is nothing to think and nothing to talk about. I am quite amazed at my mind’s working because some ancient thoughts which I assumed to have been quiescent are suddenly active but thankfully are not causing me any trouble or agony. I want to stay with them for a little while however knowing what I know about thoughts and the power they unleash I prefer not to dwell with them anymore. Beyond our bony skeleton, our blood, the tissues and cells we are made up of electron, neurons and atom which forms our basis; and atom is pure energy. Every human being is manufactured with the same energy quotient even the non-living things that are apparently solid like a table or a chair are also made up of these energy elements. Similarly our thoughts also possess energy and emanate a certain frequency every single ...