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Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase.   It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions.  This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...

Jewels being lost are found againe *

It is really spooky to all of a sudden find something which you were looking for ages and almost lost all hope of ever seeing it again, one can’t help but get immense pleasure and joy on such occurrences. So I have also found something unexpectedly which is of great value to me, I didn’t even realize its worth until I found it. Why is it that we need to lose things in order to find later how much they meant to us? Probably that’s the way God would like things to be, and so when we ultimately find our precious gems we could be profoundly grateful for having them and take care of them the way they are supposed to be taken care of. I know for some of you my vague descriptions appear confusing but believe me few things are best if left just the way they are. After 4 days of constant worrying my little cousin brother Nabeel’s fever is reaching normalcy and so we all could breathe a sigh of relief. Its not easy to witness your dear ones in any sort of indisposition, you would want to do eve...

Freedom Flotilla

What a day it was yesterday when around 1 pm I heard the news of renowned Pakistani Journalist/Anchorperson from AAJ TV Talat Hussain (also a personal favorite of mine), his producer Raza Mehmood Agha and Nadeem Ahmad Khan of Khubaid Foundation went missing on Freedom Flotilla the Turkish ship, on Gaza-bound humanitarian mission, which came under Israeli attack in international waters. Flotilla was carrying aid along with more than 700 activists including journalists from 40 countries. Even though neither of these guys is my kith and kin nevertheless a sudden and intense bond with them and concern of their safety became the main concern not only for me but for many Pakistanis. Entire day people were glued to TV to receive some concrete news regarding their lives and safety. However, according to the latest information all three of them are out of harm's way and now all of us are waiting for their safe and sound return homewards. The role of media and our Government in all of...

Power of Thought

I wonder what would become of my sleep tonight; I made myself a cup of cold black coffee with no particular reason just felt like doing it. Now mind is wondering in infinity and there is nothing to think and nothing to talk about. I am quite amazed at my mind’s working because some ancient thoughts which I assumed to have been quiescent are suddenly active but thankfully are not causing me any trouble or agony. I want to stay with them for a little while however knowing what I know about thoughts and the power they unleash I prefer not to dwell with them anymore. Beyond our bony skeleton, our blood, the tissues and cells we are made up of electron, neurons and atom which forms our basis; and atom is pure energy. Every human being is manufactured with the same energy quotient even the non-living things that are apparently solid like a table or a chair are also made up of these energy elements. Similarly our thoughts also possess energy and emanate a certain frequency every single ...

Triangular Relationships

So many a times we exhaust ourselves worrying over trivial things which ultimately dissolves on their own and are not so significant either. I have been trying for quite some time now to add some kind of background music to the blog. Film music have destroyed our sense of peace and calm but at the same time background music if selected intelligently could take any scene to a different level but I don’t know how much of this is applicable in the case of our blog. I haven’t uploaded anything yet and I’m not even sure whether it would please or produce an unpleasant effect on you guyz. There was a time when I as a student couldn’t study without some Indian number playing in the room but in later years as the studies became more analytical music became an impediment while concentrating so this habit was given up. We had to go together so I went with Amma to her clinic and as I was sitting in the waiting area there was a 4 year old crying continuously and his father wa...

Day 74

There is a strong inclination to move to the comforts of sleep, the day started earlier than it usually does and so the brain is requesting me to let it get some rest. To add more severity to the condition I’m extremely hungry that I can even eat a house. So dearies excuse me tonight for I am not in my alert senses but I leave you with a promise to return with something worthwhile, Insha’Allah. Love & Good night. Sonya.

Present Moment & Surrendering

Tomorrow would be a long day so many things that were pending for months would be taken care of and I sincerely pray that all efforts would be worth it. Humidity in Karachi throughout the day is taking its toll especially when companioned with frequent electric shutdowns but nights are beautiful with moonlight glimmering throughout the sky. With almost negligible traffic outside one could easily be lost in the stillness inhibiting in night. Ahh the almost full moon is enchantingly magnificent and what more could one ask from life. I thought if given a choice where would like to be this summer and the reply came as abruptly as the reflex system works, of course Thames in London Eiffel-Tower in Paris Gondola rides in Venice and picturesque Geneva are the beautiful places that I want to be. But then I thought that I don’t want to be where I am Now in this very moment I want to escape, escape from the heat and probably the crazy times in which live today in our country. Its one thing to ...

Back to Basics

Karachi’s heat has now transmuted itself into muddy winds, no matter how hard we clean the dust still dwells in every possible corner. Life was so simple before blackberrys’, net, social sites came into our lives. Since their arrival we have conveniently replaced them with the full use of our mental faculties. Nobody has to remember important dates anymore every appointment or schedule is now on our cellular and we highly prefer to save contacts on websites. We have become so dependent on them that even a feeble thought of loosing them fills us up with panic and anxiety. Regardless of the gizmos that I might get in future I have decided to go back to the basics and so a proper old fashioned diary with contacts therein shall become my girlfriend from now on. No more sole relying on things that I cannot control. Twitter is addictive although I’m not entirely aware of its etiquettes but I enjoy twitting. Its short it’s simple and very quick. Almost entire day is gone in finding em...