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Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase.   It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions.  This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...

My Writer's Cramp

After 4 years of waiting and inability to write normally I finally visited the doctor to have a check up of my hand and to my amazement I am diagnosed with Writer’s Cramp. I must admit that on hearing this I felt a bit privileged because this problem usually happens to people who excessively use their hands like violinists, pianists or people who write a lot; so I felt as if I am some sort of an artist or a creative person. Anyways coming back to the cramp it is nothing serious at all except that I would not be able to write properly for some time, although there is medication for this but I’m not interested in taking anything. The researchers have outlined few reasons however like hundreds of other health problems they are unable to determine the real cause, all they could do is give possible multiple explanations. To be honest now I don’t have much faith in medications. The drugs merely have a placebo effect the real healing happens from somewhere unknown, like when we get a cut on...

Making Amends with Past

I don’t have any idea from where or how to begin because today has been overwhelming for me. After several years of putting a lot of effort, perseverance and sincerity in my relationships I am ecstatic to receive the fruits of my intentions. Like so many I have made some silly mistakes and behaved in ways which were non-loving, when my actions were unkind and they did not reflect my true feelings. It had been more of action-reaction instead of action-response with dignity, humility and understanding. When the people who were directly or indirectly involved in the matter acknowledged my efforts and intention and realized that I authentically tried to atone for my actions. What could be better than to be forgiven and to forgive, to be allowed to heal and to start afresh. It feels as if I have acquired the riches of the universe, the feeling of abundance has completely taken over my entire being and out of these emotions emerged humility, gratitude and the hint from God that I should...

A Return to Home & Early Signs of Writer's Cramp

Thank you so much all the dear ones for giving such a warm response for these pictures, thanks a lot for all your emails and messages. It is no wonder that most of the friends who responded with such affection are those who are now living in different parts of the globe where they have every facility which one could think of but nothing can ever match the place where they were born and brought up; where they spent their childhood. No matter how much of a luxurious treatment you receive at a five star hotel nothing could beat the comfortableness of a Home . I definitely need to see an expert doctor for my hand nerves/muscle numbness. For the last 4 years I have trouble in writing and my inscription has become more like a child, it was in this very state that I gave exams of my Master of Laws (LLM). Nobody to blame here because it has been my own doing, few years ago I became fanatical with my exercise routine and did some weight training and in my sheer eagerness (please read stupidi...

Pictorial Sky after Rain

Thankfully the storm passed by Karachi peacefully and so there is a sense of relief and lots of gratitude. However the dilemma of load shedding is still looming around all of us I think we should say serious prayers to get rid of this issue once and for all. If only I could be in government then I would have made sure that every part of country has a continuous electric supply. Yeh right!! I am posting some pictures I took in the evening from our terrace of the skies after the rain. It seems that everything goes through some sort of metamorphosis; from flowers to trees, the entire atmosphere looks fresh and pristine. Enjoy and love to all. Sonya. (Day 81)

The thirsty earth soaks up the rain - And drinks and gapes for drink again *

Ah the rain descents after all. Its past midnight now and I can’t but imbibe enough within myself the night’s beauty. Quietly it began drizzling as I sat in my balcony feeling rather than watching the effects rain has on us. It’s so magnificent outside that to even try to put in words is beyond my humble capacity. Due to storm predications the traffic is negligible which almost is a rarity nowadays. Then the most beautiful orange tinged street lights scatter their shade on the wet roads, sprinkles of the rain aromatizes the dry and humid soil; and then a rickshaw passes by with its psychedelic lights and hi-fi stereo playing the songs of Attaullah Khan Esakhelvi. And once calm and sensuous sky of yesterday is now roaring with bright sliver lightening; in this very moment I simply couldn’t ask for more. Even though the thunder storm is doing every effort within its power to startle us however the stillness of night and cold breezes has abolished any such endeavours. But then the r...

Jewels being lost are found againe *

It is really spooky to all of a sudden find something which you were looking for ages and almost lost all hope of ever seeing it again, one can’t help but get immense pleasure and joy on such occurrences. So I have also found something unexpectedly which is of great value to me, I didn’t even realize its worth until I found it. Why is it that we need to lose things in order to find later how much they meant to us? Probably that’s the way God would like things to be, and so when we ultimately find our precious gems we could be profoundly grateful for having them and take care of them the way they are supposed to be taken care of. I know for some of you my vague descriptions appear confusing but believe me few things are best if left just the way they are. After 4 days of constant worrying my little cousin brother Nabeel’s fever is reaching normalcy and so we all could breathe a sigh of relief. Its not easy to witness your dear ones in any sort of indisposition, you would want to do eve...

Freedom Flotilla

What a day it was yesterday when around 1 pm I heard the news of renowned Pakistani Journalist/Anchorperson from AAJ TV Talat Hussain (also a personal favorite of mine), his producer Raza Mehmood Agha and Nadeem Ahmad Khan of Khubaid Foundation went missing on Freedom Flotilla the Turkish ship, on Gaza-bound humanitarian mission, which came under Israeli attack in international waters. Flotilla was carrying aid along with more than 700 activists including journalists from 40 countries. Even though neither of these guys is my kith and kin nevertheless a sudden and intense bond with them and concern of their safety became the main concern not only for me but for many Pakistanis. Entire day people were glued to TV to receive some concrete news regarding their lives and safety. However, according to the latest information all three of them are out of harm's way and now all of us are waiting for their safe and sound return homewards. The role of media and our Government in all of...