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Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase.   It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions.  This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...

Day 112

The irony of life is that irrespective of what goes around us, life seems to have a pace of its own it moves on and on with each one of us always being dragged along, whether merrily or miserably is another issue all together. There are moments when a strong urges arises from within to move to calmness of lush greenery, birds chirping in the nearby village, tranquillity of lake and the sun shining timidly; where there is no hustle to reach somewhere or to be somebody...uhhh.... Merely giving my thoughts an expression has soothed the senses. Well its getting late now and I have to keep the blog short, sorry for the brief and impersonal encounter today. I need to get some sleep before I doze off on the keyboard. Good Night everyone…… Sonya. (Day 112)

First Impressions

111 is such a funny figure but at the same time I feel proud of my consistency and am so thankful to God for the perseverance. Proper and timely lunch followed by a 20 minute nap could do wonders for you really. Tension seems to be diffusing gradually in the city well at least it feels much better at home, children from the neighbourhood playing cricket outside and people moving around in their varied dimensions instils a sense of regularity and peace. And then a strong flash of hope emerges from somewhere within, probably from the heart or spleen or kidney or gall bladder or lungs or liver that it all shall pass giving way to new and blessed beginnings. So in the hope & faith we shall live. Someone on TV was talking about first impressions and how wrong they could be; and that we should not abruptly give judgement on anybody disregarding them completely just because we don’t like the shirt or shoes he or she is wearing. I cannot say about the shirt or shoes stuff however as I l...

Current affairs

Unexpected, sudden & unwarranted time-off’s cuts one from the flow of life and everything becomes stagnated. It’s Tuesday and there is a pin drop silence on the roads outside, silent violence persisting in the city for some time now has finally taken its toll on the residents of this beautiful and dangerous city, Karachi. Moreover, the threat of floods has also reached its most alarming stage throughout the country. With so much events happening around it is rather difficult to maintain our calm and focus yet we all go through these events in the hope of seeing better times. Days are passing in the busiest and proactive manner and I have the satisfaction of not being merely busy but being productive as well as creative with the usage of my time. And after a long while I could get a sense that I am not catching up with time and running madly to get things done rather it’s the other way around. Resisting thoughts or anything else as a matter of fact is not a wise option because wha...

Here I am!!!

After a long time this Sunday has been full of constructive activity and thankfully I didn’t have to go through a single lethargic or boring moment. And now it’s Monday which is giving me a sort of fright because as usual I haven’t learned or even had the time to sift through my acupressure lectures or reading material. It is observed that we don’t usually have any time for the things which we are least interested in some way. I have to confess sheepishly that medicine or even biology or zoology have never been the love of my life, I went through emotional/ mental crisis when I had to learn biology in college or school and the way I learnt these subjects and how I passed my exams, with respectable grades, is still an unsolved mystery and I believe even National Geographic’s research team would have to spend decades before they could decode the answer to this phenomena. On the other hand law always came effortlessly to me and I never had to learn or try to understand any of its subjec...

Back to the pavilion- Day 108 (Part 2)

Many apologies for my disappearance, believe me this time it wasn’t intentional. The antivirus which I installed on my PC expired few days ago and it was only wise to use PC after renewing the security system. Due to heavy rains we were all stuck in home for 3 days however I must say that I had an unusually good time because in these rains for the very first time there were absolutely no electricity cuts everything was working in pristine condition. Albeit few days passed by but it seems like an eternity that I came on the blog. These past few days have been interesting and I have met new people and it goes beyond saying that all of them have something quite positive about them. By the way did I tell you guys that I am learning reiki and acupressure, I think not. Well you must have heard about acupuncture and they are similar to it except that these methods of healing are without any needles. Both reiki and acupressure are alternative medicine where absolutely no medications are inv...

Day 108 (Part 1)

Many Condolences and prayers on the demise of 152 passengers of Air Blue (Airbus A321) which crashed into the Margalla Hills, Islamabad, Pakistan. May God bless the souls of the people who lost their lives in the crash and give peace to their relatives and loved ones and bestow upon them the courage and patience to go through this ordeal. More prayers of peace and betterment for the people who lost their lives, loved ones, their homes & livelihoods in the heavy floods across the country. With so much disastrous news coming from all quarters it becomes difficult to function normally in our daily lives; feelings of being completely helpless are inevitable under these circumstances. It frustrates us for not being able to do anything for anyone. So these are the times which call on us to pray- to pray for miracles. These are the times when we must not only pray for ourselves but for everyone who is in trouble or agony anywhere. We should pray for the peace, safety and prosperity, e...

Misperceptions

For some strange reason I am unable enjoy the retirement which Sundays bring into our lives. On this particular day of the week I find myself surrounded with the feelings of lethargy and boredom, no TV show, nothing appears to be interesting and it all feels dull. Life is thankfully getting into routine and discipline and there is something wonderful about waking up early morning. Spirit, mind and body are in perfect harmony at dawn; the day begins early in the quietude and transitory time when the ultimate darkness of night is leading the way for the brightness of sun and is beckoning for a new day. Probably this is why these early hours harmonise and resonates most with the human nature because regardless of the darkness of any time there shall be always light, giving way to the brightness of hope and new beginnings which shall inevitably follow through. There are quite a few things that I would like to talk about but where and how to start is somehow puzzling. There have been so...