Sonya Syed

I guess it has been almost two weeks since I wrote my last post, but I cannot give any solid reason for my absence because I don’t understand it myself. The only and the best way I could put it is that my mind is not able to concentrate on any thought or idea and I am unable to put it in the words as to what has been going on with me. I am in a different phase of my life where my thirst for inner peace and pure joy takes precedence over my desire for any material gains where I am exploring new avenues.  So I sort of shifted my life on my inner self and followed everything religiously which is the standard procedure ranging from observing my mind to brutally murdering my ego, to meditations and excessive prayers; for past one and a half year things were actually fine. Then following my instincts I have lessened my efforts for my legal career and completely focused all my energies in learning how to heal. Albeit my healing form is much of fait...

When I am all set to relax and enjoy a bit of TV, when everything seems to be in perfect shape, when there is a joy within, when life seems to full of beauty, when the sun is set and night is encroaching upon the day- suddenly there goes the power supply, in a second all that beauty of life that beckoning of evening enveloped in rest and leisure is now changed to rushing to close all main and heavy electrical appliances with a final touch of a humongous gurrrrrrr coming from the generator. It would be painful to imagine such an end to a beautiful evening. Sometimes there is so much to talk about, however; when I would sit down to chat nothing appropriate comes out so I drop the whole idea all together. Its just like going a giant ladies mall where everything so appealing and you want to get it all and since that is not remotely possible you would come out of there over-whelmed by all the stuff and exhausted for not buying a single item. With my immune system getting pro...

One is unable to comprehend the real value of health until there is an encounter with some indisposition. For some time now I have developed a routine to say gratitude for my health and overall well-being but that is all a verbal exercise because at times I have behaved negligently. And now when I had fallen ill and got well with soar throat and a high fever I could easily understand the difference between a healthy and an unhealthy body. I hope that we all take care of ourselves and treat our immune system with some respect and appreciation. Lot is going on in my mind these days and its not thinking rather it is unthinking . Whatever has been plastered in my mind since my early childhood to my adult life is pealing out layer by layer, and please do note that I am not going for any sort of psychotherapy; rather I am regularly reciting a combination of Bismillah and Allah’s name for my overall well being & happiness. As a consequence matters which once were consider...

Returning to the familiar territories is such a delight, and for me it would have to be this blog; though I intentionally stayed away from appearing for a couple of days because whatever I would write then might have felt forced rather than natural. Since now when I am in my usual frame of mind with much less distractions, well almost, I thought that this is the time to share a thing or two with you guys. Clarity of mind is a sheer blessing and I cannot but be in awe of those who possess this trait as their natural state, as for others like me who need to do a bit of work on ourselves before we are able to experience clarity and stillness. Some of our friends wanted to know what do I mean by stillness; well our minds are highly activated most of the time and there is constant thinking going on in it. Most of our thoughts are repetitive and they just continue like a movie playing of past and current events; and stillness is nothing more than quietening our minds. ...

All of us have our brilliant moments and also there are times when we have lost it completely, although in my current situation the latter would suit me perfectly. Sometimes the simplest of actions are exaggerated by our thinking and we tend to over-estimate their impact on our lives; and finally when we have conducted those actions we could breath a sigh of relief irrespective of the nature of outcome. Nevertheless, when I would be able to breathe my relief I don’t know. There has been a lot of work going on in my mind these days- if I try and follow my instincts my logical mind would jump in with its cheap, loud and argumentative voice and informs me about the triviality of things. It tells me to be a 100% sure that I will get some benefit from my actions; it wants me to live my life today in the shadows of my past experience; it tells me only to believe what I can see or hear or touch with my physical senses; it tells me not to have faith in the unseen or the unknown; it ind...

After a long day mind is finally obtaining some focus which it lacked for some time. Over using or going beyond certain justified limits mentally always exhausts the brain cells but once this overwork is stopped everything falls into its perspective. Although I woke up sluggish this morning; however, managed to perform all the tasks which were required, then it was ten brief minutes in the sunlight to acquire my Vitamin D and what a brilliant time it was. To breath in the warmth and love of the sun, its rays beaming with tenderness. These things on the face appear to be rather insignificant yet if we could feel their subtlety with some degree of stillness would give us astounding outcomes; mind, body and the spirit all are re-energized. The law and order situation prevailing in the city are a matter of concern for all of us, one could only hope and pray that the concerned authorities take immediate timely action and once again we could as a nation leave in peace and harmony...

Something absolutely magical happened with me today and I very much would like to share it will all of you. I bought a clothing material for myself few days ago and wanted to stitch it in a particular design; however, I needed a sample picture of that design and the only way I could get that was from the internet. But as usual due to my laziness I was reluctant to open my PC, surf the net and take the print out. Today, in the afternoon as I came out of my room I saw on the dining table latest copy of an exclusive magazine which had that particular design and many others. The amazing or spooky part is that no one in the house has either bought or ordered that magazine yet its brand new issue in the most pristine condition was just lying in our garage. All I could say is that it has fallen directly from the sky, right into my lap. At first I was trying to figure out how this has happened because nobody else besides me both in my family and in friends circle was aware th...