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Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase.   It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions.  This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...

Thank God for Your Mercy

Before anything else, I thank Almighty with all my heart for saving all of us last night from the earthquake of 7.4 magnitude. I didn’t know until in the afternoon mainly because of my allergy to newspapers and no TV policy in morning. What could have been lost is just overwhelming to even wrap my mind around and all I can say that Thank You Lord.   Lord, Save Us, We Perish   Pilot of the soul, awake, Save us for thy mercies' sake; Now rebuke the angry deep, Save, O save thy sinking ship! Stand at the helm, our vessel steer, Mighty on our side appear Saviour, teach us to descry Where the rocks and quicksands lie.   The waves shall impotently roll, If thou 'rt the anchor of the soul: At thy word the wind shall cease, Storms be hush'd to perfect peace. Be thou our haven of retreat, A rock to fix our wav'ring feet, Teach us to own thy sovereign sway, Whom the winds and seas obey………………..Augustus Montague Toplady Then my little cousin brother had 105º fever last night and...

Evolution

Life is getting too fast and the younger lot even faster, the speed with which they operate whether in life or in technology is a wonder in itself. Although I don’t actually belong to the 40’s or 60’s generation but still I cannot familiarize myself to these drastic developments. I was thinking just this morning that I am actually conservative and very traditional in every way. Now times are changing so are the values and standards of living and surviving in this world. In today’s time I often hear people saying: sab chalta hai! (everything you do is ok) For instance these days whether teenagers or people in their mid-twenties are far more candid as well as expressive about their relationships something which was and probably still considered a taboo in some parts of our society. Even when it comes to their lifestyles, professional ethics and values in general everything is different. Then there are also the ones who have different standards for themselves and when it comes to reviewi...

Light Versus Darkness

What could be worse than when in the midst of your favourite TV show the power goes off, although I am blessed to have a generator yet due to some technical reasons I was requested not to watch TV on its support. So what do I do then? I would now download the entire episode of Koffee with Karan Season 3, which had the interview of Rani Mukherji and Vidya Balan. It was such a pleasure to see such great talents laughing their way out and enjoying every bit of their interview, the chemistry between the two of them was simply awesome. Rani is such a wonderful and true actor and what can I say for Vidya she is the likes of Meena Kumari and Nutan. However, to see Rani after a long break was a pleasant surprise but I was also slightly upset to see her so sad, even though she was laughing and giggling yet her eyes are depressed. Somewhere in the pseudo glamour Rani Mukherji is lost, she has considerably lost weight and looks a lot older than her age. I guess bad relationships or our attach...

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR YOUR LOVE

I have just opened my emails and facebook and to see the response for yesterday’s post I am overwhelmed, ecstatic with joy and the love which all of you very special people have sent my way. Thank you Sadia for being my inspiration and I always remember the good and bad times we spent together, our highs and lows, when I cried and shared my most vulnerable moments with you and especially when you, Aunty & Anzala were with me when Nani passed away; so thank you so much once again. I also welcome Nighat Qaiser to our little family here on the blog.   It feels like a gush of warmth running through the entire body instilling every cell and tissue and reaching my core, doctors call it adrenaline or endorphins but I call it love. I am astonished to experience this particular emotion in such huge amounts and with such intensity when I talk about friends and my loved ones. My family, my friends be it Sadia or Maria have always been an integral part of my survival and I am deeply grat...

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

I thought to write about something fun and exciting, something away from my usual ramblings, however; with an anti-allergic in the system one can hardly get thrilling. In the upcoming days I have plans to socialize, to enlarge the circle of my friends and desperately looking forward to meet my dearest friend Sadia, who is at the moment on her trip to USA with her son and hubby. So on her return it would be back to old gossips, catching up on all those months which have gone by and then also being a part of her younger sister’s wedding. When I think of her a sudden flash of our ridiculous adventures comes in. It was the time when we were doing our BBA and taking extra classes for accounting and on our way back she being the creative mind decided to visit couple of haunted houses one being in Saddar (a commercial area in Karachi) and the other located in Nazimabad. In Saddar, the alleged haunted house was situated adjacent to a petrol pump/gas station, so one fine evening...

Tiny steps

Thank you so much all for your encrouraging comments with respect to yesterday’s post and Junaid Uncle I needed this guidance, so thank you once again. If not relatively but figuratively my life appears to have taken some shape; however, I encounter people on regular basis who believe that I have given up on life and simply taken a back seat by being extremely passive. Yes I agree this is how it appears from the outside, nevertheless; I have taken another strategy to live. To begin with I am not looking for some big bang purpose in my life because whatever I am doing in this very moment, which could be either writing this post or washing dishes or doing anything, is my purpose. I don’t look forward to some dynamic bombastic life goal, to me tiny steps in the present moment are taken for the future and it would be my peaceful relationship to these steps which would determine the quality of my achievement in future. Believe you me I have been an insignificant part of the neurotic power...

Day 163

Coming down with flu especially due to my own carelessness (please read stupidity) is not an option when lot needs to be done, schedules are to be met and above all daily responsiblities are hampered. Yet I feel so privileged and grateful for having the luxury to take a day off without any serious consequences neither for me nor for anybody else. People I see everyday have such crucial responsibilities even close home that taking a day off is simply not an option. Yesterday I attended a sort of political gathering or say it was a party meeting of Tehreek-e-Insaaf (TI) with the crème de la crème and students. For those who are unaware of TI, it is a political party started by the renowned Pakistani cricketer Mr. Imran Khan some 16 years ago. Over the years this political party has not been in power yet somehow due to criticial circumstances all over Pakistan since past few years people are looking for alternatives mainly because we all are done with the same old, same old faces with th...