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Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase.   It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions.  This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...

Colors

Colors and more colors I’m seeing everywhere since yesterday’s evening. Finally the bride has ventured into her new life may it be filled with million joys & lots of marital bless. So we are done with the wedding ceremony of Sadia’ s sister and what can I say it was again a great event, the bride & groom looked just perfect and the family joyous. There were colors all around and especially with me. If I have to review my dressing it was nothing less of a tutti frutti. I also happened to meet Sadia’s school buddy and what a coincidence it was, that both of us were wearing Saris. We have actually met for the first time in more than a decade of my friendship with Sadia. It was wonderful to witness the rapport and intimacy they shared, there was so much easy in their relationship something which we have with our childhood friends. Like a relationship I share with Maria who is my childhood pal, we practically grew up together, went through our teenage and finally we all grew up...

Fascinations

These social sites are such a blessing to one’s life, an email address few odd characters in the password box, a click to the “Enter” and an entire world opens up right before your eyes. Loved ones, friends, colleagues informal with their families, come farther closer and you can take a peak into everybody’s and they in yours. And all I can say that we are truly fortunate to be present in an era when our lives have become comfortably resourceful. There was a time not too long ago when we used to wake up in the middle of the night to receive calls from the relatives living abroad, since the lines were not perfect so everyone would speak loudly and at times habitually rather than as a requirement. I could never understand why everyone called in the midst of night when there could have been a time setting in the late morning hours or after 11 at night. Nevertheless, now with such advance portals available there is simply no excuse for missing someone’s birthday or other significant occas...

Sleep and sensibility

Burning eyes, heavy head, looking desperately for a place to sleep or even a simple head down would suffice under such circumstances; are all the wonders of insomnia. Yesterday I decided to loose myself in the beauty of slumber and getting to bed by 9 pm but no! mind had other plans. The more I focused on sleep the more resistance I faced so after a tug-of–war with me on one end and insomnia on the other, I gave up and decided to be awake as long as my mind wants to. There was just no point in fighting with it. God knows when I slept, may be it was 3 or 4 I have no idea. My night routine has been disturbed for months now, because when I get the signal to doze off I think its too early and I need to do other things rather than go to bed; therefore, the entire routine is messed up. Sleep is such a vital part of our lives and if we don’t do justice to it our entire immune system pays a very high price, we have zero concentration, everything including our perceptions become blurred....

Getting back to the routines...

Thank God for making Saturdays, they seem to have a magical effect on me. Irrespective if I work or not on Saturdays it is just simply one of the most fulfilling day of the week besides a little drizzle today in the early hours just gave it soothing touch.   Finally, I did manage to do exercise after a gap of I cannot remember how many months, weeks or days and the sort of aches I had afterwards in the muscles, which I never knew have existed, is beyond phrasing. I read that when doing any kind of workout one should change the exercise routine after every 4-6 weeks. If we continue to workout with the same speed or with the same routine our body being very intelligent quickly learns to minimally utilize the stored fat in those repeated movements. So it is advised to change the workout routine to trick the body and not let it get used to the same movements. For instance if you walk for 20 minutes daily then after 4-6 weeks change it 30 minutes or change your time and speed at the tre...

Life goes in circle

Some things never leave you irrespective of how much you try, hence once again I heard a remark about me, which was a bit annoying at first, but then I accepted it as it is. There was or is a general perception that I am very carefree person with unserious attitude towards life and its responsibilities. Although the person who said this later admitted that it was an entirely wrong perception. What can I say but laugh at such notions. The very first time I have heard about it is when I was doing my BBA; though I worked as hard as anybody else, was damn serious about my career, punctual about time yet I heard such comments. If you are the only child with self-sufficient lifestyle and if you prefer to be jovial then of course you are bound to be a careless person, to hell with the discipline or hard work. I guess people rather than actually understanding someone blindly follows pre-conceived ideas or whatever story their mind tells them. In response to such believes I decided to cha...

Story of my Clutch Purse

Goodness its been almost two weeks since I last wrote, although every single day I missed being with all of you but what can one do when life gets in the way to our most beloved things. I was struggling to complete a very important book, wrap up efficiently my daily chores, sleep early and if possible do some kind of exercise; consequently there was no time left in the day. By nine in the evening, I was so exhausted that I just barely managed to say my prayers and then it was rushing to the comforts of my bed. Since posts take normally 1-2 hours straight so I thought it was only prudent to write when my mind and body have some coordination. Yesterday after a while, I have attended the most organized mayeon (henna ceremony held before wedding for the bride-to-be) of my dear friend Sadia’s younger sister. Everybody looked beautiful, the food was appetizing, and the kebabs were succulent; over all it was a delightful event. Plus I got my Hershey’s dark chocolate, some great makeup and a ...

Thank God for Your Mercy

Before anything else, I thank Almighty with all my heart for saving all of us last night from the earthquake of 7.4 magnitude. I didn’t know until in the afternoon mainly because of my allergy to newspapers and no TV policy in morning. What could have been lost is just overwhelming to even wrap my mind around and all I can say that Thank You Lord.   Lord, Save Us, We Perish   Pilot of the soul, awake, Save us for thy mercies' sake; Now rebuke the angry deep, Save, O save thy sinking ship! Stand at the helm, our vessel steer, Mighty on our side appear Saviour, teach us to descry Where the rocks and quicksands lie.   The waves shall impotently roll, If thou 'rt the anchor of the soul: At thy word the wind shall cease, Storms be hush'd to perfect peace. Be thou our haven of retreat, A rock to fix our wav'ring feet, Teach us to own thy sovereign sway, Whom the winds and seas obey………………..Augustus Montague Toplady Then my little cousin brother had 105º fever last night and...