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Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase.   It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions.  This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...

After so long..

Who would have thought that my next post will be a month later, but what can I say when my mind refused to give me any creative or even writable matter. If I use my laptop for only an hour I get neck pain and then the entire back begins to hurt. Rather than getting me in painful situations my mind blocked everything which I can write or share with all of you. However, now things are better so here I am once again. A word of advice to all laptop users that if we you have any headaches or backaches or cervical problems then meet a doctor and please switch to old school i.e.“ personal computers”. So much for the dissatisfaction, when I had a PC I was dying to get a laptop and now when I have a laptop I will be returning to PC soon. Yesterday I met a lady, who is a multimillionaire with husband, children and even grand children; with sound business in Karachi yet she is seeing two psychiatrists for her depression. Then I know a girl, being the bread earner in the family of 12 peop...

Friday it is..

Damsel is out of her distress, accepted everything with dignity and is now looking for brighter side of matters. I have been quite busy with some work at home, some cooking requests from family and by the time I was with myself, I just wanted to sleep. Today in my sheer stupidity I accidentally closed my mobile when I was expecting a highly important call. There were hundreds of marketing and product promotion sms’s continuously coming in the evening and in order to concentrate on my work I decided to switch off the mobile and open it within few minutes. Probably an hour elapsed when I discovered that I completely forgot to switch on my phone but by then the possibility of receiving that call also vanished. Time management is crucial. Yet I am confident that I will receive that call- if not today, then tomorrow or day after tomorrow but I shall receive it and this is my faith..Insha Allah. The yoga instructor to whom I went to study yoga, told me that I am an Escaper . He s...

Damsel in distress

Sunday went merrily amidst the heat and then on Monday things became a bit shaky. By night I received two unexpected news and both were sort of rejections for me; something which my ego didn’t take too well. I felt gushing emotions, ache in my knees, back and cervical pains. I thought instead of falling in the trap of my mind and its chatter lets make into an opportunity to go deeper in consciousness and enlightenment. Lets watch my thoughts (how mind labels or judge the situation), feel all the emotions and observe my body reactions. As I became an alert witness to my thoughts and emotions, I felt aches in my knee joints. In the middle of all this, I realized that if I did not continue this duality I will succumb to my thoughts and will get arthritis. This is what exactly happens when you have stress in your life, your mind continually define, label and judge the situation and the people in it. Since we do not become the alert observer of our thoughts so we mistakenly take our minds...

Sunday brunch...

Hot, humid and dusty with hardly any traces of rain in this beloved city of mine. We all are desperately waiting for showers pouring down from heaven but alas there seems to be some delay. Delay is such an uncomfortable aspect of human life. To wait patiently for something that you have desired for so long and you are aware of its presence in close proximity, yet to accept and cherish the delay , is the true test of our patience. For some reason I find in myself a desire to write the blog in Urdu language. Converting an English post to Urdu from Google does not feel natural, besides the essence of the conversation might be lost in the verbatim translation. So I need to look for an appropriate system for Urdu blog. While writing this post I have heard a very distressing news piece that reconditioned cars, spare parts that are exported to Pakistan from Japan via Afghanistan and Dubai, contains high levels of radiation from the nuclear power plant. So please do not buy any cars or spare...

Golf ball, really!

Most of the day went in excitement and discovery. I have been following reflexology experts Kevin and Barbara Kunz on facebook and yesterday they have uploaded an excellent self-help healing technique, called the golf-ball technique . If anyone of you heard of acupressure, it is a type of acupuncture except that in acupressure instead of needles pressure of thumb and fingers are applied with specific techniques over the body. In Reflexology pressure is only applied on feet and hand because it has been found that all our body organs have extension or reflex points on our hands and feet. In the golf-ball technique, pressure is applied by golf ball on hands which suspend our stress levels thus resulting in proper flow of current in our bodies and ultimately healing. It’s a very simple, harmless and inexpensive way to heal sinus, asthma, digestive problems, hay fever, allergies, migraines, managing stress, pre-childbirth and labour complications. It even provides overall health condi...

Thank you for your love…

Thank you so much, my dearest friends and family for appreciating yesterday’s post; all I can say is that I am humbled by your love. Whatever you liked in that post was not due to my writing or my expression but merely due to your own presence in my life. All of you have given me such beautiful moments hence all I did was wrote them down and shared some beloved memories. Night is pressing on and so as my need to sleep, its only 11 pm and I suddenly find it difficult to concentrate and if I continue like this I might sleep on the keyboard. Therefore, I am sorry but I have to keep it brief tonight. Once again thank you all, for such a warm response for yesterday’s post. I hope to be there tomorrow in a focused state Insha-Allah, until then Good Night & Sweet Dreams. Sonya. (Day 194)

Darling

Once more a curious title, but I am excited to be called darling twice in one day by two different friends (girl friends). I made two calls and as soon as my both of my friends picked up they said in an enthusiastic tone “ darling ”; however, more than me the people who were sitting with them were stunned. Friends have their own amazing ways of expressing love and one can only be grateful for that. One of my friend from early school, in fact from kindergarten, Muneeza Shoaib aka Azee is hopefully coming to Karachi from UAE and I am excited to meet her. I think I had a dream or vision about my kindergarten few days back and I saw Azee and I having some really exciting conversation; I think I was telling her something and she was all thrilled listening to it. Its been ages since we last met, we use to have so much fun together. Whether it was our birthdays or school functions, there used to be regular soirees at her place where her mom (Aunty) cooked delicious foods. We read...