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Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase.   It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions.  This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...

Day 218

I have realized that with an empty stomach it is extremely difficult to concentrate on anything. After having a bit of gastronomic delight I am back in my senses and ready to focus. By the way yours truly had her birthday on 5 th October and it was a fine evening. In years, this one is I believe has been the most organized occasion with dinner and evening specialty of double fudge chocolate cake. Most of my family have a sweet tooth but we are also hyper-health conscious so these birthdays become the sole reason for our having cakes. I on the other hand have no sweet sense; my taste buds are completely unaware of any sort of sweets or deserts. The credit of all this directly goes to my mother, from my early childhood she kept me strictly away from all the sweet stuff.   Before I forget thank you Star for visiting the blog and for your comments. It is nice to see that someone has decided to comment directly on my blog because most of the people who read my posts pref...

Day 217

I haven't felt this low in a long time, yes my friends I am feeling extremely down. I know that this not the kind of material you would expect to read but this blog is an integral part of my life so you bear with me both my good and not-so-good times.   There is nothing in particular which is responsible for this mood and all I can say is that I have a very curious nature and I have to know everything. So when I follow a clue to discover something, if it doesn’t lead me anywhere consequently I get bored and end up frustrated. Yes I am on my way to some significant discoveries and there are several clues to my puzzle. A lawyer’s mind is an interesting place, it is highly analytical and curious and wants to solve the mystery case. Please note that it is not a matter of national security nor I am on my way to find a mafia don. It is a real life puzzle/mystery and I have all the clues/pieces in front of me it is only that I have to place the right one at the right place....

Day 216

All is done in due time and at last I’m free to be with myself and especially to sit quietly in my room and have a chat with you. It has been a long day, I have been up early and then one thing after and another.  They were showing on cable The Revenge of Pink Panther, I couldn’t see all of it but the bits of the movie were definitely entertainingly funny. I saw its earlier part, cannot remember the recall name though, but that was hilarious. There is also a remake of Pink Panther, in Part 2 of the new version Hollywood added Aishwarya Rai to the cast and I have heard that they shorten her role considerably. This is what happens with bigger film Industry although they take actors from other countries for variety yet they hardly ever highlight their roles.   So what happened in my day…well nothing much really I was working like crazy on some of my legal & miscellaneous work. It is wonderful to be busy; it keeps the body and mind in a healthy and working con...

Mystery

After an agonizing gap of 5 days, our internet connection is restored and I take a sigh of relief.  I have to make many apologies for missing the posts but the circumstances were impossible. I have written posts for 4 days from 27 September which I have missed, you may find all the posts below this one.  If I have to take a gap of even one day, I feel intense discomfort. If you have to do something then you have to do it, no excuses. Discipline is a tough genre of life and if there is a commitment then it shall be fulfilled.   Weather is the most pleasant during the day and the cold breeze at nighttime imbibes the entire systema nervosum.   I have a story in mind which I wanted to share but deliberately kept away from it. I don’t know how most of my readers would respond; whether you will like it or reject it or probably laugh at it. The story is real and belongs to a person I am acquainted with. It is real because I trust the lady who narrated ...

Saturday Night (For 1st October)

It has been a while since I went out on Saturday; it was not a visit for fun but more for getting household necessities. Immense joy emerged from within to witness busy roads and everyone out with their families to go for shopping, to attend weddings or even to watch cricket match.  Orange hued streetlights glistening roads, wedding halls decorated like brides, a nearby stadium had flood lights and packed to a thousand audience. What I really absorbed tonight is difficult to put in words but all I am able to say is that seeing so much life everywhere, vibrating and pulsating, infuse in me utmost delight. Residents of Karachi after going through so much crisis have beaten their fear and like always moved along with their fast pace life. I wish that we all live in peace and joy for an eternity. It is not advisable though to go for grocery shopping on Saturdays because the stores are almost jam packed with people and a billion children. My trolley was crashing with almo...

Birthdays ( For 30 Sept. 2011)

It is 30 th September and after years of embarrassment with my dearest friend Sadia Abid Saleem I finally remembered her birthday. Not only that I remembered it but made a small arrangement of giving her a surprise visit with a bunch of flowers. Regrettably Amma had a mild fever so chores at home were to be looked after therefore my visit to my friend’s home was postponed; yet calls were made and greetings were given. It has been a regular with us that whenever we have an occasion we give each other flowers. She is the only person besides my Uncle and Aunty who give me flowers as a birthday gift therefore she is also one of the most content recipients of bouquet. Most of the people even my mother believes that flowers last for few hours and it is wise to gift something which can last for 6 months to few years at least. Well this is a valid point but you cannot replace the sheer joy which these delicate flowers bring. Everything does not have to be valued in ...

Icebox (For 29 Sept. 2011)

A steel gray broad beauty we call our new refrigerator entered the environs of our home. For some time now, we were thinking about getting a new fridge as our requirements were altered these days but then it was a long-term idea and nobody was really interested. I must say that when you decide to have something or someone in your life be very careful and watch-out because your thoughts even if they were in your mind for few seconds have a powerful magnetic attraction. Things and people actually manifest. Those few seconds of profound desire and wish in your mind creates a very strong attractive force which then strongly pulls the object of your desire towards you. So it is always advisable to have positive and loving thoughts so you can only attract what brings joy and peace in your life.   Moreover being aware of your thoughts and emotions empowers you to change your thoughts from negative to positive and discard the undesirable people or situations. This is the famou...