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Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase.   It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions.  This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...

Delightful Treats

What a day I had, since morning I have been running around but thankfully doing productive things. After a long time I went for indirect shopping today, indirect because I didn’t have anything to buy for myself but then few things attracted me and I bought them. Probably after my school life I went to Tariq Road for buying some stuff. For those of you who are unfamiliar with this area in Karachi, it is place for some serious shopping mainly for ladies party and informal dresses, shoes and bags. Although I passed this street a million times since my last shopping there but due to heavy traffic could never gather the courage to stop and buy anything. I am glad that I went there, everything has changed immensely and contrary to my fixed idea about the things there I was surprised at the available variety.  Moreover, I was delighted to see a restaurant named “Khausa” in the midst of this very busy street. It is a cozy place which actually serves Khausa and has a good s...

Bits

You can run but you cannot hide- There is just so much going on TV with all the high-profile cases involving some really important people of the country. Lawyers making appearances more than the celebrities and everybody is just glued to their TV sets watching every move and statements of political figures and their lawyers. Whether at work or at home it’s always the new analysis, a layperson is becoming well-conversant with law and the country’s constitution. More than the coverage of high-profile cases it feels that we are watching a suspense thriller and I must say that at times far more intriguing than a thriller. Yesterday a distressing revelation was done on late night news show that the vegetables cultivated at Malir area are polluted not only with sewerage water but also with dangerous toxins. It is believed that 20% of these toxic vegetables have been circulated thorough Karachi, so please avoid to buy any vegetables and if you have, then dispose them.  Hopefu...

Pressure points

I sometimes wonder what keeps me busy through out the day or may be the day is shortened. Everything seems to pass by like the sand slips from hand, months have changed into weeks and days into minutes. Probably the days are the same but we are running too fast, trying to do many things at a time- trying to be everything to everybody, trying to achieve a lot and complicating simple aspects of life. Doesn’t it feel that we are always running on an invisible treadmill throughout our lives. What all we need is health, peace, some nice clothes, a plate of food-thrice a day, that’s all about it. Nevertheless, the desire to have more, that feeling of not having enough, that hunger seems to dwell with us an entire lifetime. We desire an object and when we acquire it, the happiness of having that object stays only momentarily with us and then we desire something else. The cycle of desire and emptiness hardly ever leaves us, strange isn’t it!         ...

Phantasy

It is so fulfilling to know that your efforts are helpful to others and I am grateful for all your messages and comments. Although I feel that there is still a great deal to learn and to discover on my part. Do keep up with your input, it is very helpful. Weddings are all over the place, it seems everybody is getting married yet it is at times an alienating feeling. When everybody around is either married, about to get married, it seems strange that I am not part of the “Married Group”. So what is it to get married, does it imply that one has now become part of that approved section of the society or you get married because you actually believe in sharing your life with somebody? I wonder what the answer could be for most of the people; however, the institution of marriage has been there for ages and it has worked for many people. Probably there shouldn’t be any philosophical debate about marriage in the first place. It is something that everyone before you, after you ...

Fitness tips from a pro…

At last after a lot of deliberation we bought a treadmill for home use, because even with the best of intentions I simply couldn’t keep up with going to gym. Gym is definitely not my cup of tea, at least for now. I think we got a good deal on this exercise equipment, it is a nice machine with a red lights on its screen resembling to once famous disco lights, which were used for wedding decorations in my childhood. It was a difficult decision to choose the most suitable treadmill because they all looked the same; however, the main deciding factor was its monetary value and its usability. For more than a year I have sprain in my back and the entire vertebral column hurts, after gulping many painkillers the pain is very much there but yesterday after a long time I did some yoga. Although I do very basic and simple steps yet it has magically relieved me of my pain. It feels as if I do not even have a back, well figuratively speaking. I think I have ste...

Comforts & heartbreaks

Sundays come with their laid back attitude, late breakfast, slightly chilled morning with moments in the sunlight and a cup of cold coffee; to me this is pure luxury. It is such a tremendous blessing that I have the comfort of relaxing or the time to read a book or write blog without having to worry about anything. There are so many blessings and miracles manifesting right under our noses yet we are unable to fully recognize them or appreciate them. Although I hardly predict anything but when my intuition is right on the target and everybody who was discouraging me would ultimately accept my view, it feels as if I have conquered the world. So only yesterday I found that one of my insights was correct, of course there is also another side to this prediction but now I am positive that in due time I will be getting further affirmations in this regard as well. When it all falls into place, and I am sure that it will soon, then I would share it with you. Lights can surely...

Day 264

It is quite strange to use laptop after months, although it has been my friend for years but we are estranged for some time now. The screen look smaller and darker and I am simply not use to this device any more. We humans are peculiar species, first it takes a lot of time to get over an attachment and when we are attached to something else our first attachment is deleted from our memories. When we are all set to travel to a different location, we feel saddened to leave our home. As we reach the new destination, stay there for few days, get used to it and then leaving it, makes us melancholic. Such is the human state.  Lately I have been busy doing nothing and somehow my creative juices involved in writing blog aren’t active the way they usually are. Blog writing is a totally different ball game; there are times when I can write two or three posts in a row and then there are moments when writing single paragraph becomes a struggle. These days ...