Sonya Syed

It feels nice to be back, well if I come to think of it I’ve never left. But then the flu and sore throat got into the way and one becomes lethargic to get involved in any activity. Our friend on the blog commented on my earlier post that taking time to read books is not as easy. I shall only say this if you really want to do something you will find time to do it; all you need is dedication. Since last time so much has changed inside me as well as outside yet I still feel to be a work in progress. Over the time relations change either they evolve or alter their mode it can be true for friendships or any other relation. Few of mine relations are in the process of evolving where people are trying to figure out a way to understand how to be with my new version. Well I don’t feel like I have changed but there are few around me who believes that I have taken a different path for my life. Yesterday while I was on the phone with a friend, she asked if I still watch TV. I didn...

I couldn’t help it but to name my post today with this particular title. Only yesterday I got my hands on a phenomenal book by Agatha Christie. I have read many suspense/ murder/ mystery by quite a few writers but this one has mesmerized me beyond anything and gave me Goosebumps. Surprisingly you would not find any ghastly descriptions of grueling murders or exotic situations however the subtlety here is the main killer. Some might have read something with the same theme earlier yet the way everything has been narrated is what makes Agatha Christie a writer par excellence. I will not say farther because that would spoil the fun of reading it. So if you have time then do read it “Endless Night”, by Agatha Christie. I was introduced to this incredible writer by my mother many years ago and since then I have been her ardent fan. I have read other writers and topics also but somehow Agatha’s books takes you into a fantasy world where its always about lavish English houses,...

Hearty Congratulations to Sharmeen Obaid Chinoy, her team and entire Nation, you have made us proud – what an amazing day it has been for Pakistan. Nominated and won the Oscar Award for her documentary ‘Saving Face’. Every bit of good news that comes around these days is a sheer blessing for all of us. I was up last night in fact through out the night thanks to the excess of green tea and having nothing to do I watched Oscars. Winning at such an event makes us realize that nothing is impossible, a lady living in Karachi with most of the crew members of the documentary being undergraduates at local universities yet they make it to the Oscars. The movies doesn’t have to be mega-budget endeavors but have meaningful content. Iran is one of those examples, a country which is famous in producing content-oriented as well as commercially viable feature films. The latest example of such success is the budding film industry of Nigeria called Nollywood . Nigeria produced small budget ...

Unexplained emotions seems to have become the highlight of my life these days and when I thought about acting on some of the impulses created as a result to those emotions I preferred to follow the “wait and watch” strategy. One of our friends visiting the blog suggested that this particular strategy might not be a good be idea all the time. I respect that suggestion however I also believe that on many occasion things comes up in our minds not directly requiring any action rather they show up only to make us aware of them. The moment we are aware of the emotions and thoughts or mental story they represent, there work is done. Simply by non-judgmental observing we realize where we were wrong, what were our resistances and attachment. On the whole we also realize that those set of emotions and the related memory are not productive to us any more thus they should be allowed to release. You live a substantial time of your life believing you have all the right information a...

Sometimes one goes through unexplained emotions, you are unable to comprehend the origin or reason of their presence yet they tend to stick around and do their work. As a self-help strategy you could detach and simply observe them to see what images and memories they present to you so as to get any clue. Then you receive vague ideas, however, you are unable to put all the pieces of the puzzle together. Irrespective of how many ideas you have or assumptions you make unless some concrete physical evidence is given you remain in oblivion. The perplexity which I referred to in my earlier post has been settled a bit and for now I have decided to wait and watch. Last night was a night of revelations. As I was trying to focus on my breathing and relax many images and occasions of past emerged. What was surprising to know that when you decide to become a silent observer, devoid of any judgment or resistance or attachment, your intuition present a lot of information which you w...

Last night was a tough one when I had sprain in my cervical. Although I was experiencing sensations in my head with nausea and giddiness but couldn’t put it all together until last night when all the symptoms took toll on me and I consulted my doctors. Thankfully, everything was taken care of immediately, sensations in head are much reduced and I am feeling better. Standing between certainty and uncertainty, your instinctive side points out one thing and then your rational mind comes in with all its logical explanation. Thus, you end up exactly where you have started. Today is such a day for me when I am at the juncture of decision and indecisiveness. Bewildered because I don’t like unexpected outcomes and end up making a fool of myself. In such situations it is always preferred to consult wise people around you who would in the light of experience would give you guidance; however, in the end of it all you find that the ball is in your court in fact it has never left your ...

Sometimes the most intense situations could become light if you choose to look at them lightly.    I have to come out with a confession today, it might be humorous to you but to me it is serious stuff. Today I received several missed calls consistently on my mobile from an unknown number. For a moment I became a bit excited because I only get necessary phone calls. I stirred up my fantasy or desperation thus I played around with the idea in my mind that some cool dude must be making these calls. You would be surprised that since my teenage till now I have only received approximately 10 wrong calls. In case if there was any missed call from an unknown number, it always turn out that someone in the family or friend’s circle has got a new number. Similar thing happened, few hours later as I picked up the phone with a bit of regret I came to know that the person who was calling me constantly was a plumber who would be working on the pipelines at home. The poor...