Skip to main content

Posts

My Two Cents

Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase.   It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions.  This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...

My Deepest Gratitude To You All

It is not my routine to write in the evenings however I must say that today is one those beautiful and serene evenings which inspires you. The weather is simply perfect with cold breezes and I don’t have the words to describe the effect which evening sunlight is having on me. There is something different about today- it seems as the colour of flowers, of sky and everything is different; more vibrant more alive. I feel to have today a different pair of eyes, the sounds, the smells in the air and the taste food is bursting with flavours. What has happened to me I do not know but I pray that it remains like this forever. I want to deeply thank all of you for being such wonderful readers of this blog, for remembering me in your prayers and always giving me your love and appreciation which are very precious and important to keep me going with my writings. So Thank You for just being… When I first began blogging, I thought I am doing it for myself but then gradually this blog dev...

The Magic

It might appear that I am on to book promotions these days but if I do not share this new one with you all then God help me! So here is my new pick “The Magic” by Rhonda Byrne. After A New Earth by Eckhart Tolle I believe this is the one I have fallen in love with. Well Rhonda would be a familiar name if you have watched the DVD or read her first book/ movie “The Secret”. After the release of the Secret Rhonda has developed certain practices and compiled those daily practices in The Magic. This book is more like a workbook with brief and easy daily exercises which when done shall raise your feelings and frequency to the highest levels of peace and joy.  For those of you who don’t have too much time to spare in reading an entire book then this book is just right for you because instead of having chapters it has exercises for Day 1 & 2 and so on which you will read and do day by day. Today is my 7 th day with The Magic and I have to say that I feel light as a fe...

Freedom of choice

It feels nice to be back, well if I come to think of it I’ve never left. But then the flu and sore throat got into the way and one becomes lethargic to get involved in any activity. Our friend on the blog commented on my earlier post that taking time to read books is not as easy. I shall only say this if you really want to do something you will find time to do it; all you need is dedication. Since last time so much has changed inside me as well as outside yet I still feel to be a work in progress. Over the time relations change either they evolve or alter their mode it can be true for friendships or any other relation. Few of mine relations are in the process of evolving where people are trying to figure out a way to understand how to be with my new version. Well I don’t feel like I have changed but there are few around me who believes that I have taken a different path for my life. Yesterday while I was on the phone with a friend, she asked if I still watch TV. I didn...

Endless Night

I couldn’t help it but to name my post today with this particular title. Only yesterday I got my hands on a phenomenal book by Agatha Christie. I have read many suspense/ murder/ mystery by quite a few writers but this one has mesmerized me beyond anything and gave me Goosebumps. Surprisingly you would not find any ghastly descriptions of grueling murders or exotic situations however the subtlety here is the main killer. Some might have read something with the same theme earlier yet the way everything has been narrated is what makes Agatha Christie a writer par excellence. I will not say farther because that would spoil the fun of reading it. So if you have time then do read it “Endless Night”, by Agatha Christie. I was introduced to this incredible writer by my mother many years ago and since then I have been her ardent fan. I have read other writers and topics also but somehow Agatha’s books takes you into a fantasy world where its always about lavish English houses,...

Pakistan at Oscars..Wow!

Hearty Congratulations to Sharmeen Obaid Chinoy, her team and entire Nation, you have made us proud – what an amazing day it has been for Pakistan. Nominated and won the Oscar Award for her documentary ‘Saving Face’. Every bit of good news that comes around these days is a sheer blessing for all of us. I was up last night in fact through out the night thanks to the excess of green tea and having nothing to do I watched Oscars. Winning at such an event makes us realize that nothing is impossible, a lady living in Karachi with most of the crew members of the documentary being undergraduates at local universities yet they make it to the Oscars. The movies doesn’t have to be mega-budget endeavors but have meaningful content. Iran is one of those examples, a country which is famous in producing content-oriented as well as commercially viable feature films. The latest example of such success is the budding film industry of Nigeria called Nollywood . Nigeria produced small budget ...

Awakening….

Unexplained emotions seems to have become the highlight of my life these days and when I thought about acting on some of the impulses created as a result to those emotions I preferred to follow the “wait and watch” strategy. One of our friends visiting the blog suggested that this particular strategy might not be a good be idea all the time. I respect that suggestion however I also believe that on many occasion things comes up in our minds not directly requiring any action rather they show up only to make us aware of them. The moment we are aware of the emotions and thoughts or mental story they represent, there work is done. Simply by non-judgmental observing we realize where we were wrong, what were our resistances and attachment. On the whole we also realize that those set of emotions and the related memory are not productive to us any more thus they should be allowed to release. You live a substantial time of your life believing you have all the right information a...

Connection

Sometimes one goes through unexplained emotions, you are unable to comprehend the origin or reason of their presence yet they tend to stick around and do their work. As a self-help strategy you could detach and simply observe them to see what images and memories they present to you so as to get any clue. Then you receive vague ideas, however, you are unable to put all the pieces of the puzzle together. Irrespective of how many ideas you have or assumptions you make unless some concrete physical evidence is given you remain in oblivion. The perplexity which I referred to in my earlier post has been settled a bit and for now I have decided to wait and watch. Last night was a night of revelations. As I was trying to focus on my breathing and relax many images and occasions of past emerged. What was surprising to know that when you decide to become a silent observer, devoid of any judgment or resistance or attachment, your intuition present a lot of information which you w...