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Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase.   It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions.  This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...

At sixes and sevens

Just had a very late lunch/ supper/ dinner and I have to say that life seems to be more meaningful after the meal. It is an enormous blessing to get food immediately as you need it. Think of it when you are hungry and there is nothing for you to eat, entire body becomes sluggish, sugar level goes down and there is no ability to think or to do whatsoever. It is strange that apparently minor things like a bar of fresh soap, a new shampoo which we take for granted means so much to us, just imagine living without them for a day. We have some kind of strange zoom lens fitted in our eyes which forgoes the immediate significant things available to us and only focus on the stuff that is out of our range.    For some reason I am struggling to write today probably the mind is working on so many different directions that to concentrate on one thing is hard. Or may be I have so much to say that expression is beyond my writing capacity. After a while I had some nice deep...

Cause and effect?

What a day it is when you didn’t do anything significant, when its all same old same old. From the worldly perspective it is considered a boring dull day but from the metaphysical view it is termed as a peaceful day. So today I don’t have any endeavor to talk about except the interview of our respected Prime Minister which he gave to CNN recently. My goodness it was as embarrassing as it could be possible. This is really how the world perceives us a nation, a bunch of dumb slaves. While I was a child I always felt proud of my roots to this country, whenever there was celebration of our independence day I felt myself imbibed in pride. Nevertheless, as I grew up, the illusion or dream state began to shatter piece by piece. The tragedy is that this country has immense potential some of the most astounding natural resources as well as human resources. Every field of work is rich with talented people but it hurts to witness that there is nobody until now who has the capability to uti...

Day 304

Unexpected twist and turn in life at times make it difficult to focus on anything so it is wise to withdraw, and return only when the senses are stabilized. Past few weeks my mind has been engrossed in various activities so I was unable to concentrate on anything else. Now finally when calmness is returning I am able to return to the usual environ. I would like to add that there is nothing to worry about me or the people around me, its all good by the Grace of God. I thank for your concern and for constantly sending me your emails and messages to return to the blog- It is so wonderful to be missed. I do understand desire to communicate and I do understand how much it means to all. Yet I have to say that sometimes my immediate commitments, my family, work takes up most of my time and attention. It does become physically impossible to attend to all, instantly. I feel responsible towards the Blog posts and maintaining the connection but at times by staying away, I merely seek t...

Day 303

Many apologies for not being able to write regularly but InshaAllah will get back to you all very soon.  I hope you all understand.. Take Care until next time... Sonya. (Day 303)

Day 302

What a day I had it was traveling and more traveling but it is great that some really important work has been taken care of. When I came home I thought I couldn’t move but here I am all set to chat with you all. First and foremost I thank you all on the blog and on facebook for giving your warm responses on the birthday pictures. There have been some challenging moments when my gratitude was put to test, however; at the end of it all finally it seems life is making some sense. Throughout my life I have adhered to praying and saying Thank You God routinely, probably because that was the way I was brought up. Like many others I too followed the same method, yet I always failed to comprehend the true essence of prayers or the power of gratitude. We practice gratitude but we hardly ever mean it, when we get something we desire we thank for it then few hours into it and we begin to take everything for granted. Or in most cases we only opt for gratitude when we get huge achi...

Facebook Profile - Round 2

These days everyone is either remaking classic films or releasing part 2 of some movie, like Don 2 or Dhoom 2, unconcerned of the fact that anybody saw or liked the first part they are making the second one. So I thought it appropriate to add number two with title. Yesterday I missed out my precious observations about few more of the facebook profiles. This lack is also felt by one of the blog’s reader Naved who correctly pointed out this for me.  So this is my sequel to yesterday’ post Facebook Profile where I gave my candid personal take on the fact that Facebook profile/timeline could give us a pointer about the personal/ emotional state and current life of any individual. I have been asked to throw some light on people whose profiles have mostly the pictures of mountains, desserts, oceans, or fruits or cartoon characters. Well, people who use pictures of natural environment or fruits are definitely close to Nature, some of them might have some spiritual inkling in...

Facebook Profile

God has been extremely Gracious to me and today our blog has completed 300 days. There is something amazing about having zero after numbers, the more the merrier. For a while now I have been observing this and almost every time it proves correct. We all aware of the Facebook and the profile pictures that people upload (now the name profile is changed to timeline) . I have seen that whatever kind of pictures people put on their profile is the reflection of their personality, current life and also their emotional state. Recently I have uploaded the picture of my Dad with me and that was exactly what I was going through. I was thinking about my late father and I was in a state of nostalgia and my timeline showed that. You see, all of the young mothers put the photograph of their little children. Why because their life is surrounded by their young ones – at this stage little children takes up almost their entire day, making motherhood an overwhelming experience.   ...