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Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase.   It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions.  This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...

Day 326

Bored from resting, bored by doing nothing. Sometimes even to write few paragraphs become a challenge, like it is happening these days. I sit to write but there is nothing to say; I think and rethink, stare the computer screen, get up and start to walk around the room yet still everything remains blank. I wonder what could be the reason for such blockage have I changed or is there nothing to talk about. When I began blogging back in 2009 I was going through a lot emotionally, in fact I was over-whelmed by my thoughts and feelings then. I couldn’t sit with my Mom or friends and repeat my wanderings and then there was also some new stuff to be expressed but nobody had either time or energy to listen to my chatter, hence this blog was born. Since then quite a lot has changed and for the better only. I went through my career ups and downs, lot of shaking up emotionally and then finally road to life cleared. Now in 2012 have I said it all? I don’t think so…. As long as we live ...

Health is wealth

Health is really our true wealth. There is so much truth in this one-liner because when you are not in the best of health then only you realize the essence of this simple sentence. I have been unwell since last Friday, although it was merely plain old over-work accompanied with flu but high fever was the real charmer. Now thankfully I am feeling much better and its only the weakness which now I have to deal with. It was just bad management of many things that I have taken up on myself to do. I have to realize that I cannot do everything at once, when my poor body was giving me signals to stop and properly coordinate everything I ignored them. While I was taking rest I thought it is such a luxury to be able to get all the medical help I need, proper care by all family members, the timely nourishing food so I can regain my strength, and especially the fact that I can take a break when ever I need to. Yes bodies can get ill but you have to look deep and find every single thing t...

All in a day's work

Woke up today around 5 in the morning in fact I hardly slept last night thanks to the gigantic coffee I had yesterday. Since there wasn’t much to do at 5 am so I went ahead with breakfast. I have a very special routine for my mornings and my breakfast is always the highlight of my day. I don’t have the normal habits of a mortal to have bread or egg in morning I prefer a proper meal consisting of chappati/ roti with whatever curry available in the fridge. Nowadays I have turned into a vegetarian for my breakfast because they are lite on the system and give ample energy throughout the day. I end it all with green tea and a pinch of lime. However, if one could take any fruit on an empty stomach before having any breakfast then that would do miracles for the digestive system. The soft lining around our stomach called mucosa gets sensitive if we fast for long hours and in that sensitivity if tea or heavy food is taken directly then it could be disastrous for the stomach. ...

Enchantment

Paranormal activity the name itself raises curiosity. We as humans are always intrigued by the idea that there are other energies or entities around us whom we cannot see with our normal senses but could feel their presence through our sixth sense. Be it teenagers or adults this is all quite fascinating to all of us.   Nowadays there is bombardment of TV shows about the presence and working of Jinns (Genies/ Spirits). Sometimes there are also claims that Jinn can permanently reside in the human bodies, especially in females. Like everyone else I too have heard hundreds of such stories since my childhood but I hardly know what is the extent of truth in such stories. Being a Muslim I cannot deny Jinn or their presence, in fact we are not even aware as to how many other forms of energies are living around us. Then there is new line of knowledge about mind sciences which is gaining popularity these days. I cannot say how these things work but I can say that before putti...

The Mask

Yesterday I heard the news about Tom Cruise and Katie Holmes ending their marriage. I know I don’t usually do films gossip but I saw that famous Tom Cruise couch moment on the Oprah Show so I was unable to hold my thoughts. Tom is considered quite and a very private person but the way he jumped on the couch with genuine excitement when Oprah asked him about Katie Holmes was surprising to the world. I know he is a great actor but what we saw was real.  It is never good to see people breaking up like this especially when children are involved. What happens to all that “ love ”; he proposed to her on Eiffel Towel and then had a huge wedding at an Italian castle. Besides when common people read about this sort of fairytale romantic stories, in particular the fair sex, they make enormous expectations from their partners. In the end I think it is not pre-marital time that counts but the real challenge is when people get married. It is the time after tying the knot, tha...

Life

Finding order in the disorders of life is probably the trick of great living. Irrespective what occurs in the periphery or outer boundaries of our life, the centre our core should always be in peace & deep gratitude. Once the inner foundation is there the outer structure shall itself fall into place. Weather is finally getting lighter and windy and now we await monsoons. There is something magical about rain, something that couldn’t be expressed in words. Dark grey skies, soft breezes, fragrance emerging from earth as rain precipitates from the air and the aroma of pakoras from kitchen only add to the delights of this beautiful weather. Rain during the day has different impact while the one in the night casts another spell on us. I especially love the glistening reflection of orange and red hued streetlights and cars at night; sometimes passing by rickshaw play songs quite appropriate for the occasion and I feel that it is the glimpse of heaven. My mind is mechan...

Change

They say change is the only constant and if we allow things to flow in their natural flow then it all shall turn out to be in our best interest. We apply another strategy to face change and that is we try to hide away but then realize that we really cannot go anywhere or do anything about it; so what should be done then. Ideal response is that you face and be with all that is without any resistance or judgment and above all pray that it has magnificent and peaceful outcome for all involved.     Yet sometimes change or the possibility of any change frightens us to the core and that is the point where you need Something to lean on. You look in all the places to find somebody or something who would tell you that its all going to be fine. Sincere words of comfort support and wisdom shall always do the trick. Sometimes we find that shoulder to lean on and in case if we couldn’t then we find peace within ourselves. I guess that’s the natural remedy easily avai...