Skip to main content

Posts

My Two Cents

Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase.   It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions.  This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...

Vote or Die

Awareness, especially of one’s rights is an alien concept in our society. It seems as if we live a blindfolded life. We are content if our work is done, we are content if we acquire what we want. I have seen at a vocational training institute that only few of their machines are in working condition, the students wait for their turn to use the functioning equipment. Nobody had ever complained to the management that those machines need to be repaired and that more new equipments are required. Finally, one out of 100 students requested the management about the requisite equipments and the administration looked surprised at such request. The elder administrative officer argued, that what do you need more machines for when you can learn the techniques here and revise at home. However, the next day mechanic was called in and budget has been allocated to buy new equipments. Moral of the story is that we need to ask for our rights because no one is going to give them to us on silve...

Day 331

As we begin to do new things, they always present us with challenges. Much like a horse who hasn’t been ridden by anyone, the horse will do everything in its power to stop the rider from controlling it but once the rider gets the control the horse becomes his slave. Its only 10.30 pm and there is so much silence on the roads with very few vehicles passing and that too probably due to some necessity. However, this silence is peaceful unlike the usual times when such quietness feels uncomfortable. There is something different about this month of Ramazan, but one has to be centered within to fully absorb these subtle moments. Most of the time there is so much chaos and noise in the mind that ones become oblivious to the outside.         Television these days is filled with religious and spiritual programmes and the good thing about all this is that one does get to hear some wonderful new information about religion.        ...

New avenues

How quickly time passes by in Ramazan, I woke up at 3.30 in the morning had sehri then had some sleep time followed by the working hours. Entire day goes by managing chores and when it is the time for Iftaar everything falls right into place. Only yesterday I did a balanced Iftaari so by night I was in good working condition because if there is too much intake of deep fried food then sluggishness is your only fate. Come to think of it Ramazan schedules are actually the best routines; there is definite and fixed time to do everything, and your sleep-wake patterns get perfected. Recently I have taken up the task of teaching law at university level. I cannot say what a truly satisfying experience it has become for me, to share what I have learned is amazing. It is surprising that I, who through out my student life has been proclaimed as one of the shyest person when it came to public speaking is now actually teaching adults. Speaking/ arguing cases in courts was a d...

Ramadan Mubarak!

Wishing all my dearest readers and their loved ones a blessed, peaceful & prosperous Ramadan. May all your dreams come true, may you enjoy the love of your loved ones, may you have all the health… We waited and waited but the moon wasn’t in the mood of showing up so easily, although we knew that clouds were not willing to leave the skies but something inside quite strongly said that tomorrow is definitely going to be the beginning of the Holy month of Ramadan. Once the final decision was announced, then began a series of text messages from near and dear ones. It is such a delightful feeling to experience the connectedness with so many people some of them are not even close relatives. It is definitely a blissful feeling. I have to give my deepest gratitude to all of you for all the best wishes and love you have showered me and my family with. I pray that all of you be blessed with the same love and prosperity. I shall be brief and quick today because its w...

FAITH

Sometimes it feels good to deliberately keep yourself in fantasy or in false hope; however, when the reality hits you then the obvious outcome is pain and disorientation. Faith in relationships shakes up, and you cannot understand what to do and where to go. This is the time when people run for some sound advice, somebody to tell them that its all going to be fine. No wonder the fake spiritual gurus take the undue advantage of innocent people. Sometimes the problems do get resolve by such attempts but in most cases people have to go through the challenge and only as the time passes one gets peace.     It is during these times that our faith is tried, and everything that one preaches and practices is put to test. Most spiritual teachings say that a man only experiences in life whatever are his dominant thoughts and feelings; but then you ask yourself, is that theory always applicable? Or our destiny is already written? Irrespective of our prayers, good deeds, or po...

Sundae

The weather is getting beautiful by the hour, if you wake up at 7 or 8 in the morning to feel the breeze and the see the amazing sky you could experience the wonder of life. So today is lazy Sunday but more than lazy it is a tired one, nobody wants to do anything just waste time by becoming a certified couch potato. There was a Julia Roberts movie “Eat, Pray, Love” shown on the cable, other than her I couldn’t find anything interesting in the film, most probably because I watched it from the last part. However, the movie is based on this book Eat Pray & love by Elizabeth Gilbert which is a best seller. Although I haven’t read it yet but its on my list, especially because this book is highly recommended by Oprah Winfrey. If Oprah say it’s a must-read then it becomes my moral duty to read it. All the books that are on my favourite books list are recommended in Oprah shows and I cannot that thank her enough for showing me that invaluable treasure. It is strange how ...

Day 326

Bored from resting, bored by doing nothing. Sometimes even to write few paragraphs become a challenge, like it is happening these days. I sit to write but there is nothing to say; I think and rethink, stare the computer screen, get up and start to walk around the room yet still everything remains blank. I wonder what could be the reason for such blockage have I changed or is there nothing to talk about. When I began blogging back in 2009 I was going through a lot emotionally, in fact I was over-whelmed by my thoughts and feelings then. I couldn’t sit with my Mom or friends and repeat my wanderings and then there was also some new stuff to be expressed but nobody had either time or energy to listen to my chatter, hence this blog was born. Since then quite a lot has changed and for the better only. I went through my career ups and downs, lot of shaking up emotionally and then finally road to life cleared. Now in 2012 have I said it all? I don’t think so…. As long as we live ...