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Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase.   It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions.  This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...

Day 386

Today has been an unsettling day for the entire family, my aunt’s father after putting up a brave front with his illness expired early this morning. There is nothing much to say because neither I have the right frame of mind nor the energy. Send us all your love & prayers. Thank you. Sonya (Day 386)  

A Very Happy New Year

May we all have a blessed, prosperous and safe 2013. I wanted to begin this year’s post with something special and today I saw it. For me, I believe that this is the most wonderful gift to begin our new year with. We all make resolutions every year then by the mid of it we forget about them. So here’s something new by the young family member Aleyna Ambreen Syed, she has designed memory jars for 2013.         This is how it works in her own words “ So this is our first memory jar. Every time something good happens to you this year- it does not matter if it is just a little thing, if it makes you happy - wr ite on a piece of paper and put it into the jar. On the last day of 2013, empty your jar, and see how many great things happened to you! Happy New Years everybody ♥ ” I am so moved and inspired by her idea that I am getting myself a jar tomorrow and decorating it. What this young lady doesn’t know that she is actually tapping...

Day 384

Where is God? I want to Thank Him personally. I know that You are always with me but in this very moment I just want to bow down. Thank You So Much My Dear Lord for fixing my blog’s template. I lost all my hope in trying to put the template right but nothing happened, the more I tried the worse the situation became. And today when I was just leaving the blog I saw the problem, I checked it and voila it worked! Sometimes the solution comes from the most unexpected of places. Sometimes when you think that you have a huge problem you get surprised to see a really simple solution. The trick here is to wait and give it sometime. I once heard a writer who said, ‘when I get blank and stop getting any new ideas I leave everything alone for a while and start doing gardening. This way, my mind relaxes and itself find ways to connect me with my creativity.’ This is exactly what I have done; I was so depressed with the background of my blog that I didn’t want it to give a second lo...

Day 383

Yehhh….we survived the Day of Judgement. So they said on 21 st December 2012 the world would come to an end. I have heard that somewhere in France residents of a district assumed that their area is beyond the reach of the Judgment Day. Initially this place had 200 residents but as the fame of its immunity from the doomsday grew, 20,000 people shifted there. Not only this but many similar stories were circulating in the media and on the net. Some suggested that 21 st December will not be the end literally but it will be the day of new spiritual dimension. What amazes me is that people actually believed this nonsense. However, all’s well that ends well. Yesterday was one of the most chaotic days of my life, so much so that it jerked my nervous system. Although its been more than 24 hours but I am still finding it difficult to find my focus. Thankfully, in the moments when you think that there is no way out, God shows you light. All we need to do is follow that light and ...

Day 382

It is such a blessing to have food available to eat as soon as you feel hungry. Then the ultimate luxury is to finish dinner by Doritos. I am not a fan of night or midnight snacking but sometimes to slightly deviate from your strict rules feels comforting. Adults at home are glued to TV watching there favourite show Hasb-e-Haal, a greatly refreshing program, whereas the younger lot is busy in video games. So there are mixed noises coming to me from different directions and this makes me happy. I start to feel better after 9 pm because by this time everybody is home. Otherwise evenings become bit scary, sometimes I switch on the TV while I work or do my chores. The voices and people on TV keeps me company, they would stay with me as long as I want them. Yesterday it took me more than an hour to change the blog’s template and its background, but all in vain. This task was not difficult but due to some technical glitch I was unable to get the change I desired, so what you s...

Colour

If you enter my home these days the first thing you would notice is the killer fragrance of fresh paint. Initially it seemed like an answer to all my prayers for home improvement but when everything gets upside down you begin to question yourself as to how on earth you would resettle it all.   However, once you begin to witness the outcome of others and your effort in taking care of your home then nothing matters.           It is not always about achieving your target but the real fun is when you enjoy the   journey you have to take before you reach your goal.           After many, many many years I had a cup of black coffee. There was a time when I actually enjoyed this drink, for the reason(s) still unknown to me. It was I think my 10 th grade exams when I needed to study at night. So after a lot of deliberation it was decided to get myself used to of some caffeine.   ...

Birthdays

Today is the birthday of one of my dear friend. A very Happy Birthday to Fauzia- you are wonderful friend and I shall always cherish the times we spent together. Thank you for being a sincere friend.              Today is all about birthdays so I thought why not write on this subject.  In my childhood birthdays were the highlight of the year, I used to wait for this day when I would get all the gifts and all my family will be with me.               And then! we grow up.... As we get older we tend to forget and easily ignore the little joys which were once available to us.  We stop paying attention to ourselves and so easily loose ourselves in the chaos of daily life. We not only treat ourselves harshly but we also become insensitive toward others. The lame reason we give for not being emotionally available to our loved ones is that “I am too busy”...