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Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase.   It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions.  This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...

Security Alarm

Yesterday evening as I was preparing to write the blog suddenly I heard some movement downstairs, within minutes I was told that some thieves have entered our neighbour’s home. There were security alarms, guards and on-time police. It appeared like a movie scene, police were on the roof with flashlights and announcements to surrender. Thankfully, thankfully nothing happened and thieves ran off without causing any trouble most probably due to the high-tech alarm systems. What has happened to Karachi, anyone you meet these days have their own robbery or mobile snatching tale. You buy a new expensive phone and you are afraid to take it outside your house. Not long ago car theft or mobile snatching was unheard of in Karachi. Ladies would wear their gold ornaments without any fear and now even the brides wear artificial jewelry on their wedding day. So much has changed today, however, if that time didn’t last then I have faith that this time shall also pass. Nothing...

Day 388

There were quite a few things that I wanted to talk about but as I sit here trying to write something, I feel lack of energy. Energy drain is due to my indisposition, I hope to get better soon and express at length what I needed to focus on. Something is working on the back of my mind and I badly need to confirm it. Its like knowing that you have done well in exams but until you see the result with your own eyes you are not satisfied. I too have given my best shot and now just waiting to see its magnificent outcome. Its like I have been unknowingly involved in a project, I didn’t know what it was all about or why did it begin in the first place. However as I moved along, with all my faith, everything began to take shape. Moreover, I discovered that it’s a very interesting process and there is no harm in going beyond your normal strengths. Ok enough of my blabbering, I just had my acupressure session and I am feeling relaxed which is bordering to sleepiness so I don’...

Early Monday

Today I write in early, way early than my usual timing but its better to express yourself when you feel like, rather you wait for the right moment. Finally after a lot of negotiations with myself I came to a resolution, and at last I decided that I cannot make everything right. That sometimes things need to get out of order and fall apart so a new and beautiful order can be made. For quite some time I have been struggling with myself and trying to do what is right. However, I didn’t realize that what I believed to be right could be extremely wrong for many people including myself. We humans make our decisions based on the evidence which we perceive through our five senses. Nevertheless, there are moments when our sixth sense intervene and compels us to go beyond our five senses and take a leap of faith; to only focus on the purity of my intentions and peace for everybody. That is exactly what I am doing, I am stepping into the unknown with my faith intact. Somebody I...

Day 386

Today has been an unsettling day for the entire family, my aunt’s father after putting up a brave front with his illness expired early this morning. There is nothing much to say because neither I have the right frame of mind nor the energy. Send us all your love & prayers. Thank you. Sonya (Day 386)  

A Very Happy New Year

May we all have a blessed, prosperous and safe 2013. I wanted to begin this year’s post with something special and today I saw it. For me, I believe that this is the most wonderful gift to begin our new year with. We all make resolutions every year then by the mid of it we forget about them. So here’s something new by the young family member Aleyna Ambreen Syed, she has designed memory jars for 2013.         This is how it works in her own words “ So this is our first memory jar. Every time something good happens to you this year- it does not matter if it is just a little thing, if it makes you happy - wr ite on a piece of paper and put it into the jar. On the last day of 2013, empty your jar, and see how many great things happened to you! Happy New Years everybody ♥ ” I am so moved and inspired by her idea that I am getting myself a jar tomorrow and decorating it. What this young lady doesn’t know that she is actually tapping...

Day 384

Where is God? I want to Thank Him personally. I know that You are always with me but in this very moment I just want to bow down. Thank You So Much My Dear Lord for fixing my blog’s template. I lost all my hope in trying to put the template right but nothing happened, the more I tried the worse the situation became. And today when I was just leaving the blog I saw the problem, I checked it and voila it worked! Sometimes the solution comes from the most unexpected of places. Sometimes when you think that you have a huge problem you get surprised to see a really simple solution. The trick here is to wait and give it sometime. I once heard a writer who said, ‘when I get blank and stop getting any new ideas I leave everything alone for a while and start doing gardening. This way, my mind relaxes and itself find ways to connect me with my creativity.’ This is exactly what I have done; I was so depressed with the background of my blog that I didn’t want it to give a second lo...

Day 383

Yehhh….we survived the Day of Judgement. So they said on 21 st December 2012 the world would come to an end. I have heard that somewhere in France residents of a district assumed that their area is beyond the reach of the Judgment Day. Initially this place had 200 residents but as the fame of its immunity from the doomsday grew, 20,000 people shifted there. Not only this but many similar stories were circulating in the media and on the net. Some suggested that 21 st December will not be the end literally but it will be the day of new spiritual dimension. What amazes me is that people actually believed this nonsense. However, all’s well that ends well. Yesterday was one of the most chaotic days of my life, so much so that it jerked my nervous system. Although its been more than 24 hours but I am still finding it difficult to find my focus. Thankfully, in the moments when you think that there is no way out, God shows you light. All we need to do is follow that light and ...