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Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase.   It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions.  This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...

Mistakes

Many apologies as I am not in a very pleasant mood today, situations which have occurred yesterday are still heavy on my mind. Sometimes people make stupid mistakes and the consequences of those mistakes shall remain with them throughout their lives, not only them but every other person who is with them gets affected. However, sometimes we get really lucky and with the Grace of God and with His Divine intervention, miraculously, everything gets settled in the most peaceful manner. Fortunately I haven’t made any silly mistake but I have recently seen the side-effects of ridiculous actions of others. My uncle once told me that there are two kinds of people, one who learn from their own mistakes and others who learn from the mistakes made by others. The latter ones are the wisest. There are many discussions on several forums about having friendly relations with our neighbouring country India. We are so enthusiastic in this friendship that our channels have started ...

Experiment with Gratitude

Its almost 12:00 am and way beyond my sleep time but when you decide to do something then you do it. For past few months I am having regular headaches in the evening, I believe that my cervical or sinus could be the obvious reasons. Since I have started to paint I have developed some sort of allergy with paints and I am unable to use my sense of smell properly. So today I thought I should take some steam and green tea. However, I was in no mood of having something as flat as green tea so I got an idea of adding a bit of coffee with tea and honey.   If at any point in your life you decide to take green tea with coffee, then my only advice to you is to be brave because you would taste the strangest of beverage. Nevertheless, it comforted my sinus and satisfied the need to have a different taste. There are moments in life when nothing seems to work and you become shaky in your prayers and faith but this is the time when we need to really go with the flow of life. I...

Children

Yesterday we had to drop by our mechanic for a quick car check-up, the garage is adjacent to a Preschool/ Montessori, and I am always more than eager to visit there with the sole motive of meeting little babies. The lady who is the Principal at the school is my Mom’s patient so we are always welcome there.                 While the car was checked I was sitting in the school premises, within few minutes the school got off and I was surrounded by at least 100 little children. It felt as if I am sitting in a beautiful rose garden, except today the roses were smiling and playing with their little school bags.               There was a little girl I guess around five and she was giving me constant smiles. After a while she came to me and asked who I am and what am I doing in her school. Then she abruptly, without any hesitation, asked me to give her some m...

Its all good!

Finally, finally I am here! I feel so happy to have the time to come and talk to you all. It was so disturbing that I was unable to be on the blog, it almost felt as if I could not breath.  Since we had a little bit of paint at home everything got upside down. There is one chore after another, day ends but the work does not. Although we did not do any major changes but once you get to cleaning so much comes out. By the time I got some free moments I was so exhausted that even looking at the computer tired me.    Today I thought come what may but I shall write. Blogging is one of the most comforting activities for me because it relaxes my mind. It is my outlet to say whatever I wish and if I have something positive to share then its all good.   It is a blessing to be with all of you who have stood by me for four years now. Yup I started this blog on December 2008 and it has been wonderful journey. Yesterday for some strange reason I stopped at ...

Day 393

It is truly a phenomenon when ordinary people go through extraordinary experiences in life. There are things for which we have no rational explanation, they just exist. However, it is best that it all turns out to be in peace & joy for all involved. We struggled, ran from place to place in the city in search for a compact espresso coffee machine, finally we got it and at a bargain price. Nevertheless, it has a lot of work and preparation before you are able to get teeny coffee cup. I thought that in the time we had spent making two cups of coffee in machine I would have made ten cups of coffee on stove. Then again the luxury of having a good cup of cappuccino at home is worth the effort..   It has been a long and exciting day so much so that I cannot even think now. I had plans to write on serious issues but I if continued like this, I might doze off on the keyboard. By the way recently I have developed a strange love for Spanish music, I don’t know why, how ...

Twilight

Before anything I give my sincere thanks to Dr. Jabeen for all your love and wonderful healing/ reiki which you have sent my way. I received it and feeling thousand times better now. Thank you so much. I decided to treat myself luxuriously this evening, so I made myself a good cup of coffee with some shami kabab. It made me think that there is nothing more lavish then to have some time for yourself where you pamper yourself; maybe watch a good movie or read a good book, get a new hairstyle. It doesn’t have to expensive material goods just anything that makes you feel luxurious. All our lives we wait for someone or something to make us happy, to show us our true worth or beauty but what we don’t realize is that first we need to treat our self with compassion and respect; leaving behind all the attachments or expectations. Nobody wants to enter a unhappy room but people always love to join the party. So be the party. Luckily for me on cable they were showing Blue Stre...

Day 391

Last few days on the political front in Pakistan had been crucial. Everyone was glued to their TV sets watching anxiously the future of the long march which took the country by storm. We have to admit that as a nation our people have shown their moral strength, discipline to achieve a common goal. Freezing temperature and little children, ladies, gents and elders were sitting with all the patience. It was remarkable to see this side of the picture. Nevertheless, I feel that the true test of this long march will be at and during the elections. All we have to do as a country is to watch everything with our fingers crossed. Yesterday I had a wonderful experience with painting. Like many painters I always worked with oil paints and thought that they were my destiny but yesterday it was a new beginning. I experimented with acrylic paints and they are pure magic.  With oils you need high maintenance and a lot of patience with the constant smell of turpentine and ker...