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Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase.   It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions.  This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...

Election Selection

These days fortunately we are in the process of deciding our care taker Prime Minister, many names and recommendations are coming forth in this concern.  I believe this would be the first time in the history of Pakistan that we are actually seeing our democracy alive through out its tenure, which is now transferring its power to a selected group of individuals who would not only look after the elections but shall bestow power to the freshly elected people. For these five years of democracy, we as a nation have paid a very heavy price. Many of our innocent citizens felt prey to terrorism and many have their lost livelihoods because economy has gone from bad to worse.   I believe these five years were the darkest years of our history when bombs have become a synonym to Pakistan. However, the good part is that we learned and we grew, at least I hope so. We now have seen very clearly as to how our choices have effected us and also our next generations. I hope t...

Day 398

Its one am at night or shall we say in the morning and I am having Gol Gappe (Pani Puri) with my younger brother. I know this sounds crazy but sometimes the only sane thing to do is to get a bit crazy. There is a lot of pending work which I need to complete as soon as possible or else I might get into trouble. You see I am amongst those students who would spend their entire vacations playing and having fun and only two days before school they would suddenly wake up and do their homework. Last week has been quite phenomenal for me, I got to meet so many people whom I haven’t met in years and it feels like a miracle. Plus, I am back into teaching and had the wonderful opportunity to teach at the university where I myself have studied for my business degree.   It was so amazing to meet some of my Professors and the most amazing part is that they remembered and even recognized me amongst hundreds of students.   The energy of education and students could have such...

Mistakes

Many apologies as I am not in a very pleasant mood today, situations which have occurred yesterday are still heavy on my mind. Sometimes people make stupid mistakes and the consequences of those mistakes shall remain with them throughout their lives, not only them but every other person who is with them gets affected. However, sometimes we get really lucky and with the Grace of God and with His Divine intervention, miraculously, everything gets settled in the most peaceful manner. Fortunately I haven’t made any silly mistake but I have recently seen the side-effects of ridiculous actions of others. My uncle once told me that there are two kinds of people, one who learn from their own mistakes and others who learn from the mistakes made by others. The latter ones are the wisest. There are many discussions on several forums about having friendly relations with our neighbouring country India. We are so enthusiastic in this friendship that our channels have started ...

Experiment with Gratitude

Its almost 12:00 am and way beyond my sleep time but when you decide to do something then you do it. For past few months I am having regular headaches in the evening, I believe that my cervical or sinus could be the obvious reasons. Since I have started to paint I have developed some sort of allergy with paints and I am unable to use my sense of smell properly. So today I thought I should take some steam and green tea. However, I was in no mood of having something as flat as green tea so I got an idea of adding a bit of coffee with tea and honey.   If at any point in your life you decide to take green tea with coffee, then my only advice to you is to be brave because you would taste the strangest of beverage. Nevertheless, it comforted my sinus and satisfied the need to have a different taste. There are moments in life when nothing seems to work and you become shaky in your prayers and faith but this is the time when we need to really go with the flow of life. I...

Children

Yesterday we had to drop by our mechanic for a quick car check-up, the garage is adjacent to a Preschool/ Montessori, and I am always more than eager to visit there with the sole motive of meeting little babies. The lady who is the Principal at the school is my Mom’s patient so we are always welcome there.                 While the car was checked I was sitting in the school premises, within few minutes the school got off and I was surrounded by at least 100 little children. It felt as if I am sitting in a beautiful rose garden, except today the roses were smiling and playing with their little school bags.               There was a little girl I guess around five and she was giving me constant smiles. After a while she came to me and asked who I am and what am I doing in her school. Then she abruptly, without any hesitation, asked me to give her some m...

Its all good!

Finally, finally I am here! I feel so happy to have the time to come and talk to you all. It was so disturbing that I was unable to be on the blog, it almost felt as if I could not breath.  Since we had a little bit of paint at home everything got upside down. There is one chore after another, day ends but the work does not. Although we did not do any major changes but once you get to cleaning so much comes out. By the time I got some free moments I was so exhausted that even looking at the computer tired me.    Today I thought come what may but I shall write. Blogging is one of the most comforting activities for me because it relaxes my mind. It is my outlet to say whatever I wish and if I have something positive to share then its all good.   It is a blessing to be with all of you who have stood by me for four years now. Yup I started this blog on December 2008 and it has been wonderful journey. Yesterday for some strange reason I stopped at ...

Day 393

It is truly a phenomenon when ordinary people go through extraordinary experiences in life. There are things for which we have no rational explanation, they just exist. However, it is best that it all turns out to be in peace & joy for all involved. We struggled, ran from place to place in the city in search for a compact espresso coffee machine, finally we got it and at a bargain price. Nevertheless, it has a lot of work and preparation before you are able to get teeny coffee cup. I thought that in the time we had spent making two cups of coffee in machine I would have made ten cups of coffee on stove. Then again the luxury of having a good cup of cappuccino at home is worth the effort..   It has been a long and exciting day so much so that I cannot even think now. I had plans to write on serious issues but I if continued like this, I might doze off on the keyboard. By the way recently I have developed a strange love for Spanish music, I don’t know why, how ...