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Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase.   It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions.  This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...

There is God!

Everything happens for a reason and for our own good. ....Today as I was plugging my PC this line was flashing   in my mind. I am now beginning to understand why our elders always say this to us. Few days ago my Computer started to feel unwell, so I consulted couple of technicians and they all said that a certain device has broken down and it needs to be replaced.  Yesterday in my usual haste and without taking any further advice I went to a huge computer store to buy that device. The staff at the store was impersonal and not in any mood to be cooperative, then they made me sit there for 45 minutes while their manager hopelessly searched for my particular device. After that extra long wait they informed me that the device I require is out of stock and I have the option of purchasing another version costing almost double. Although a bit upset with their behaviour I decided not to say anything especially not to create any scene there. I was continuously te...

NA -126

It is so amazing to experience that some fresh air and an extra-strong cup of coffee can change your entire perspective on life. Today the spirit of boredom got into me, I was a bit uneasy throughout the day but as the evening approached, I was seriously bored.  So we went out to have some coffee and oh boy, it worked like a charm. These are the million little luxuries that we can indulge into, they rejuvenate us and gives us the necessary boost to continue with life.          Once I heard Julia Roberts’ interview where she said, ‘it is such a luxury that I have time to read a book’.   Initially I was unable to comprehend the depth of this statement but still it struck me. There are many people around us who live from one pay check to another and there are many ladies who work almost 24/7 at home taking care of family and also looking after their house with no domestic help. In the midst of all this, if one could have even lit...

Love is in the air....

I do not know the reason but I just wanted this to be my tag line for today. I am so grateful for all the prayers and love which I am receiving these days. Some of my family members are performing Umrah these days and their prayers are enveloping me in sheer love.            If you listen carefully to your heart and focus on your feelings you can actually experience people’s prayers for you. It is magnificent when your kith and kin love you; nevertheless, it is a blessing when people genetically unrelated to you have compassion for you.              We all have a very bollywood oriented idea of love- where a dashing boy meets a beautiful girl, they sing and dance, get separated by the harsh world, boy fights the villain, get back the girl of his dream, again sing and dance, and live happily after. Love has different meaning for all of us. For me love means happiness, health,...

Gastronomic delights

“After a good dinner one can forgive anybody, even one's own relations.” Oscar Wilde from A Woman of No Importance . I cannot express how much the above is true and how amazingly one can change in his/her views on life after having gastronomic satisfaction. Few hours ago when I wrote the first draft of today’s post, I was bitter and angry, mostly on the political system but now after a good dinner I am a changed person. Everything seems to make sense now. These days my family is complaining about my extra busy schedule but I am very happy with it. Sometimes keeping yourself busy especially with creative and productive activities becomes a blessing. Yes, at first, it might appear that I am unconcerned about the people whom I am connected to, but to be honest it is my therapy. My problem is that I am too concerned about everybody in my life, to the extent that it exhausts me, drains me of my energy. So these days I am taking few steps back and trying to do someth...

Light, camera, action!

Today has been a long day, from the morning the spirit of lethargy has possessed me. All I want is to doze off, just calm down the mind, because it has been hyper-active throughout the week.  Sometimes it is strange that you feel irritated as if you need to do something but don’t know what it is. You carefully read and re-read your To-do list and there is nothing missing there. So what is the reason for such discomfort ? Am I suppose to finish a chore that I have completely forgotten or do I have to speak with somebody. Ahh so many questions but, alas no answer.... Today I have been trying to select my picture to upload it on facebook; however it has been a struggle in vain. The ones I already have, had been uploaded on fb at least 100 hundred times and my friends and family have pleaded me not to repeat them anymore.  One of my best pictures had been on fb profile for more than a year, so one day I received a desperate email from my cousin. She said, ‘ Sony...