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Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase.   It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions.  This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...
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Baby’s day out

I am intimated and embarrassed due to my friend’s baby boy who is hardly two years old. This baby who is only in this world for less than two years, he cannot even speak properly, and have just learned to walk is operating IPad like a pro. His grandfather asks him to open GEO News on his Ipad and he quickly does that. I wish I could show you the video. What is going on here, where am I living or more appropriately which era do I belong to? I mean this is crazy, even after a year of using a Smartphone I still can’t figure out how to send a business card. Until two months ago I didn’t even know that there is something like viber or whatsapp, it was only after my Acupressure & Reiki professor begged me to install & use these apps I began using this stuff. She said, ‘today even a 70 year old person is far more tech savvy than you’. I was a person who would keep my cellphone miles away from my room on a stand at the dining table in the lounge. If my callers were ...
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June, Budget & Thoughts

Budget, budget oh dear budget has arrived. And I must say what a killer it is... Have you ever experienced confusion in feeling your emotions, like when you don’t know that whether you are afraid or worried; anxious or angry. Today I am having that confusion because I have no clue whether I am feeling the heat of this weather or the fear of budget. May be its both, but frankly for the people who have stable income and a comfortable lifestyle can somehow bear this burden. Nevertheless, millions of people in this poverty stricken country are living in dire circumstances, with no hope of any betterment. Would they be able to handle this humongous financial pressure? In the midst of extremely fragile law and order situation in the country electricity, food items and basic necessities of life are already beyond the reach of a common man; and now with this new budget I fear that their survival is threatened. We seriously need a miracle. So lets pray that this moment of ...
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Love is it?

Sleepless nights, muscular cramps, sudden anxiety pangs, lack of energy due to under-eating & insomnia, with your mind at one place and the heart in another and to top it all- is always feeling that there is something more to give in the relationship. Commonly these symptoms would indicate two things, either a psychological condition or falling in love. But who knew until yesterday that teaching two classes of MBA would do this to me. Yes for past 4 months I couldn’t sleep or eat properly and that is also the main reason behind my vanishing from the blog for longer periods. And it was only yesterday when I submitted the results for both of my classes I realized that all these months of such immense responsibility changed everything for me. I suddenly realized that unconsciously I have become a parent to all my students and like a mother I am constantly worried for their careers, grades and progress. I have suddenly grown up. Going to take a class seems so ea...
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Sometimes...

Is it only me or any one of you is also feeling lethargic, out of sync with you energies. As I write today our new government is in place and we are all waiting for that 100 days action that everyone seems to be promoting these days. 100 days was actually an Indian movie in which the heroine used to get premonitions. Well there is absolutely no connection of the movie with this new government but I just thought I should enlighten you with my esteemed general knowledge. For almost a month I have been experiencing pangs of lethargy for reasons both known and unknown, and I thought I am losing my blog writing ability or every other creative ability that I have. It was a frightening thought, because after years of laborious self work I have learned few things to move on with some purpose in my life. And there was no way that I want to return to my old self, a hard core ambitious lawyer, for whom there was no place for any kind of soft emotions. Sometimes we are so a...
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And The Magic Continues

As I write in today there is a continuous sound of gaming music in the background because tonight I am sort of baby-sitting, so I shall try my best to focus and follow the rhythm of the post.  First, before we begin I thank you so much for all your responses regarding my earlier posts. I have tried my best to reply everyone in their emails and if I have missed few then please do excuse me. I am humbled by your affection and interest in the blog, to receive all your wonderful emails and messages on facebook. It would be great if you want to comment directly on the blog and I have always encouraged everyone to do so, yet I believe most of you like to comment in a more personal manner which is absolutely fine with me. It is great to know that you all are also following through the books and meditations that I have given in other pages of this blog. Most of the books are non-fiction material and I think some of them can prove to be a catalyst of change in our lives ...
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