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Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase.   It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions.  This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...

Eye to eye

Aah wait! Don’t worry I am not going to write about this infamous song but I have to say something else. I have heard this many times, sometimes with believe, but often as old age tradition transferred to us by grandmothers. Nazar or evil eye is the most commonly used and believed concept in Muslims, Hindus, and many other cultures around the world. I always thought that there could be some authenticity in this or may be its just our fear based thinking, until yesterday. I had the most severe headache for two days with back pain and tension in my cervical. There wasn’t any physical symptom, just unknown depressive feelings or extreme anxiety attacks. I went for acupressure & reiki to ease myself because I couldn’t think of anything else. For some reason I couldn’t stop thinking what my teacher once told me, ‘rinse yourself from head to toe with rock salt (lahori namak) or simple salt, and then wash off the salt with plain water. This will clean y...

Mission (Is) Possible

I cannot believe as to how many times I have deleted and re-written this post, nothing worth mentioning was coming to mind. However, today I feel that I am in much better state so let’s begin. Today is a very important day for Pakistan in many respects, first it is the death anniversary Quaid-e-Azam Muhammad Ali Jinnah. A great leader, extraordinary lawyer and a politician- who gave us the vision, strength and the motivation to have a beautiful country Pakistan. Although I am not sure as to what extent, we as a nation have been able to take care of this precious gift. When I think of those hundreds of thousands of people who gave their lives, their wealth, their children and innumerable sacrifices so that today we can live as an independent nation with dignity and pride- I feel ashamed. Where we have come today from that passionate spirit to poverty & misery. When we talk about Quaid-e-Azam we all wish that it would have been a blessing for if he could have liv...

Day 446

Feel so sleepy that I can doze off right here and now, but a commitment is a commitment. I feel bad for not being able to take pictures this morning of the beautiful surroundings that I was in.  After a long time I woke up at 5 am and stayed awake for the rest of the morning to complete some pending work. I must say it was a fulfilling experience; the green trees, the light blue sky and the beautiful soft wind were breathtaking. What a blessing it is to be able to see and feel nature. I love early morning as this is the time when I am at my best, that is if I am able to stay awake. Today was a very fast paced day, I was doing one thing after another and thankfully everything was well taken care off. I hope I didn’t bore you guys with my yesterday’s post, I couldn’t help it. I was seeing so much health issues that I was unable to stop myself. Ok, I think I cannot continue for another moment because already the screen is blurring due to sleepiness. Me signing ...

The Spring

August and September this year are becoming the months of viral infections, every 2 of 4 people I meet have either flu or other respiratory problems. Days are warmer but nights are quite cold and if you did not take proper care and managed these atmospheric changes you are bound to get ill.  Once you are down with slight sour throat, nasal problems, headache and asthma could easily follow. Patients of chronic sinus or asthma or even eczema would become the main targets of this season. So its better to switch off Air Conditioners at night and turn to the good old fashioned fans and natural wind, which are the most appropriate options. If anyone of you or your children have continued asthma, nasal problems or sinus then you need to look around the places at home or work where you spend most of your time.  House dust mites that cause respiratory and skin problems are not visible to the naked eye, are present in every country and in every environ...

Matters of Heart

As I was planning to write something today, well planning might not be the right word. Planning sounds too mechanical because this is not a matter of planning or scheming with mind rather it is the matter of heart and in the matters of heart you don’t plan neither you orchestrate anything. In the matters of heart everything just happens. So when was I trying to figure out how to begin today, a voice within said ‘ how do you feel today?’ Write about what you actually feel without any camouflaging, and be honest with yourself. I am afraid that too much honesty might get me into trouble, so I shall be a bit cautious. I always say that I might not write everything about myself, but whatever I would write shall be the truth and nothing but the truth..so help me God. Honestly, I feel that something wonderful is on the verge of happening, I don’t know where and I don’t with whom but it is going to happen. So hold on my lovelies... Sometimes we fear the possibilities of our...