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Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase.   It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions.  This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...

Enough said and done!

Fear and insecurity are inevitable feelings that you feel when you begin to loose something that you have with you for years.   There are times, when life suddenly wakes you up to do what is needed. As much as it pains you or others around you, you still need to stand up for yourself. Few days ago I went for a haircut, the stylist who was doing my hair had a frozen shoulder. It was a technical cut and she is a perfectionist, so we were together for at least 2 hours when she was carefully checking the precision. Within few minutes I suddenly started to feel acute pain in my shoulder, which led to cervical and a severe headache. The pain in my shoulder was so bad that I had to ask my stylist if her frozen shoulder was hurting her- because after practising alternative medicine and especially reiki we can naturally feel the pain or discomfort of others in our own body. I felt her shoulder pain exactly at the same spot in my shoulder and it got worse with time. So after sh...

Mirage- an illusion...

What a crazy week it has been, doing nothing significant but was absolutely busy. Thankfully, I was successful in completing my paper work, so what is left now can be managed easily. At least I am trying to be a regular at the blog, but time is passing by so quickly that days are changing into minutes. So what I should talk about today? There is so much going on, that synchronizing it all appears to be a huge task.   But began I shall, sometimes our eyes gives us the illusion of what our mind desperately wants. Its like mirage, I am sure most of you must have experienced it. In mirage, while in the midst of heat and sunlight if you look at the desert or on the road, from a distance, it gives you an illusion of water. It seems that there is water on the road or on the sand but it is just an illusion because there is no water there in reality.  However, to the viewer the water appears to be very real, because in that heat our brain needs water and what it nee...

Just another day...

More work less energy, in fact the work I have is piling up into a huge mountain of unfinished paper work. These days I am not in mood to do anything and prefer to be a couch potato, which is definitely not a good idea health wise.   The energy levels are down these days either, intentionally or unintentionally. I think when some important matters of our life remain unsettled the mind takes up the entire energy to resolve them. So the energy which is left for our daily work is then reduced a great deal.  Just to get my energy back I am taking coffee twice a day but the lethargy is still there in its full bloom. I don’t know what to do, I wish I can get some secret medicine which can give back my energy. Today is the first Sunday after a long time when guests are coming in consecutively, some old and some new family friends are dropping by to say hello. It is so wonderful to meet and greet people at home, especially at my place. I love to be a host and I lov...

Racing

I felt it, in fact I knew it that there was something wrong this time. I was unable to point it out, yet I knew it was there. Sometimes in our desperate quest to reach somewhere or to achieve something we miss the journey that takes us towards our goal or destination. We reduce it to ‘as a means to an end’. There was a story where two players were a playing competitive game. One of the players was a champion, but as the game began he got defeated very quickly. When everyone asked the champion player as to why he lost a very easy match, he said ‘throughout the game I kept my focus only on winning, on the outcome of the match- when I should have concentrated on the present moment where my competitor was with me’. It is important that one should have a goal in mind but what is more significant is to be intensely aware of the entire journey that is taking us towards our goal.   Can we touch the future? NO, because it is only in our mind- what we have with us is this momen...

Disappointment

Disappointments are an evitable part of our existence, still if we have a choice we would never invite them in our lives deliberately- yet we fall into situations where others disappoint us. There could be many reasons of our disappointments, sometimes we expect too much from others without any sensible reason. Sometimes we put people on such a high pedestal that to see them falling from that high place disappointments us. Being disappointed in itself is not a problem at all. The problem is that after being disappointed by someone we would be forced to think negatively about that person, either by disliking them or by not trusting them further. And this dislike or lack of trust for other person, is what actually gives us the pain. All of us whether we admit it or not, know it or not- are designed to be compassionate with ourselves and with others. But then the human element, the ego enters our life which distorts us and move us away from our compassionate zone. Sometim...

Acknowledgment

Before we start for today, I have to thank the younger sister of my dearest friend, Anzala of Anzala Salim- Makeup and Training  for doing my fabulous day makeup. Ladies you need to check this budding makeup artist, she is a true professional.   Do take a look of her work on facebook and book your appointments. She was just a schoolgirl when I became friends with her elder sister and today she is not only studying medicine but successfully running her personal business. God Bless her! By the way I had a great time yesterday with you gals... What a heated day it has been but all in all it was fun. Eid is nearby, only few steps away and I wish all of you a very blessed Eid Mubarak. I feel so much indebted for your adulation and support for coming on the blog and giving me your reviews and especially the students from various universities, I hope what I write is of some help to your work. Do keep me posted if you want to know more. Who ...