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Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase.   It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions.  This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...
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Step

How can you write or focus on anything when the mind is traveling in eight different planets?  Yet you gather all your strengths, make yourself a nice strong cup of cold coffee and sit down to write something; to say something because this quietude is literally taking the breath away. I don’t even know if I have used ‘take my breath away’ appropriately in a sentence but somehow it suited my condition most aptly. I feel that I am standing at crossroads in my life, with different options to choose from. It is a very common dialogue in Indian movies, when the Hero says, ‘in real life there are no retakes. You get one shot and you have to get it right or else.........’ Wow! I think I should join the film industry as their dialogue writer or might be as the story-writer, trust me I have some real material that would just blow out the minds of audience. After a long period of renovation at home, everything is finally settling. It was two grueling mon...
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Courage & The Oscars

Sometimes the things we fear most become our most powerful weapon. There is always a threshold to everything, to every experience, to every pain and to every fear. However, once you cross that threshold, that limit; your are free . In that particular moment when you have truly tasted what you feared most, your immunity takes charge. A certain defence mechanism which you were unaware to have ever existed in you, all of a sudden takes the control.     This immunity, this defence mechanism or freedom is actually your Courage . A gift that has been given to you by God, because if we didn’t have such element in us we would have been extinct by now. I have to admit that I have courage, and quite a lot of it. Thankfully, I experienced courage in a relatively healthy situation because there are many people who have to go through an ordeal to discover their courage. We always look for big events in our life to teach us lessons, so that we could become a better p...
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Colours

There are so many colours of life that truly enrich our souls and minds. Most brilliant colours are the shades of our loved ones, and of the people who have been with us through thick and thin. Yes probably I am in the mood of philosophy because that is my shade for today. Recently, I have met people who are the ardent readers of our blog, who ponder on every word that I write and give it value and respect.   This is a pure blessing that we are living in times where connectivity has become so easy, there are many platforms available to millions of people around the world through which people can express themselves both literarily and creatively. So thank you all for your appreciation and support, and being patient with me for my abrupt disappearance from blog. I tried my best to come on the blog earlier and share a bit of what is happening; however,  every time I tried to write something it either didn’t make sense to me or I didn’t feel connected, ...
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