Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase. It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions. This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...
Yesterday was a tough day not due to some external situation but mainly due to my own irritability and anger. I have been working on my academic project for months now and with lot of effort I was able to come up with the final draft, which was also approved for submission; just few days before submission deadline when I looked at my work I realized that it was “my worse writing ever!” Naturally I was lost, angry and clueless. I meditated and prayed really got down on my knees, I needed some inspiration just one cue- but nothing happened. It was in that moment I realized that whatever creative I do whether painting, blogging, working or cooking (yes I do cook) it all happens to me. I don’t really do anything myself, some kind of energy comes in giving me all the directions and dictations and I simply follow them. Of course, my intellect and thinking is involved but its only vessel through which creativity passes from. It is not only with me but whenever you do anything th...