Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase. It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions. This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...
Last night was a sleepless, anxious night. I felt the discomfort I have never felt before, and when I did get some sleep it was filled with strange dreams. In the long series of dreams I had, I remember couple of them. In one dream a man and woman, probably husband & wife, were sitting in a waiting room. The wife kept crying and her husband looked away. Then in another dream I saw a man slapping a woman and then that woman began crying. She yelled at that man, ‘you have hit me, now I will throw you out of my house, you cannot live with me anymore’. Then she was running from one corner to another trying to find someone- but no one was there. Entire series of these dreams I saw a woman anxiously moving around a house, it was crazy and chaotic. When I woke up I was seriously worried about those dreams, my heart and mind were heavy. I thought probably it was because of my caffeine intake. It felt as if I was on the edge ready to collapse. But why I was happy yesterday e...