Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase. It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions. This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...
Thank you so
much everybody for your warm response to yesterday’s post. I have read all your
emails and it is nice to know that my story resonated with you. I have to admit
that even writing Lights & Goodbyes was fun.
In the
background I hear voice of famous television anchor revealing the doing or
misdoings of people in power raising political temperature every moment. I
could never get myself to watch these shows with dedication, it feels as if
same issues are repeated over and over again. Everybody comes on TV as a
theatrical actor playing their role and exiting.
As for the Pakistani TV plays
they are beyond me. Either they have become too real life or they talk of
fantastical lives. Showing reality of any society could prove to be vital for
any positive change in the way of our thinking but art and obscenity has a very
fine and thin line between them and at times our plays' cross these fine lines easily.
Moreover, on every channel I get to see only five of our veteran male lead
actors. They are present in almost every other play and the situation with
females actors is not that different either.
Maybe after
seeing the golden era of PTV plays where reality was shown aesthetically these
plays are hard to digest. However, some TV plays are worth watching with solid
performances, plays like Laahasil and Man-o-Salwa were really good attempts.
I am on way to
sleep and I hope the situations be more promising and to be in much better spirits tomorrow.
Sonya. (Day 225)
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