Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase. It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions. This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...
I write in early today because I
think it is better to write whenever I get time during the day; in
the late evening hours energy is often exhausted.
Brinjal / eggplant (began) slightly fried
in chickpea flour (besan) is amazing with boiled rice and pulses, our staple
diet. Managing work from home gives advantage of eating a proper lunch.
Although when I work at office far from home the option of lunch is always there,
but either the food available has fried items in the menu or if something is
taken from home it is anything but rice.
Quite a few times at work I gave
in to the temptation of having biryani only to struggle afterwards with
drowsiness. Those wonderful
carbohydrates in rice not only relaxes but make me very sleepy and if there is
a meeting immediately after lunch I always
apprehend falling asleep in the midst of the meeting. Sometimes I did sleep but with open eyes and
every now and then during the meeting I would ask either a smart or a dumb
question, depending on the level of my drowsiness, just to show everybody that I am awake and paying attention. However,
I prefer to avoid such situations as much as possible.
Coming back to working from home,
it is easy if you have made preparation for a home office beforehand. Similar
to a dentist who requires latest machines and sanitizing equipment, opening up
a law firm is neither easy nor an economical venture.
Before I joined this profession I had no idea
what its going to be like, although hundreds of people stopped from becoming a
lawyer. Even my own father who was a lawyer himself didn’t like the idea very
much, but due to my keen interest consoled himself that any form of education
is good.
Having an office space and a bit
of furniture is not enough because a lawyer is incomplete without books and
many books. Then upgraded versions of those books are a must and the cost of
buying them sky rockets every year. In my teens I heard a lawyer saying that
law is a profession for people who have lots of family support both in terms of
financial and emotional; and I couldn't agree more with this observation.
Initial seven to ten years of being
a lawyer you should forget about earning if you are doing your own practice but
if you want to get associated with banks or companies and do a job then the
prospects are far better.
So with all these set-backs why
did I choose law?
The answer is I didn’t choose law, rather law chose me.
Sonya. (Day 244)
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