Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase. It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions. This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...
All my students are quite content
with me today for I have given each one of them either an A+ or an A on their
assignments. More than their happiness, I am glad that they are getting my
point.
Sometimes while I am teaching I have
this outer body experience where I feel as if I am watching myself from a distance, as a person addressing different mix
of audience with all the clarity of ideas and expression.
I have come a long way from a being person who had
an intense fear of public speaking to who I am today. Throughout my school life, my teachers had
only one remark for me ‘lack of confidence’ in all my report cards.
And then came my BBA where for the
first time I had to do presentations in front of my class of 25 pupils. My knees
used to shiver from fear, I had severe cold sweat attacks whenever my teachers
asked me to speak.
At times couple of my teachers as soon as they entered the class
would announce that 'today we are going to make presentations'. Guess who is
their first prey ‘yours truly’.
It used to be a terrible time for
me, I felt scared and my voice used to get so low that I was inaudible to anyone standing beside me. However, I carried on and I must say that all my classmates
always supported me.
They all used to protect me and actually
tried to listen and understand my presentations. After our class they would all
tell me where I had gone wrong and what were my plus points.
If it was not for all of their encouragement
I could have never make it. So thank you all, for what you have done for me,
its very special.
I used to believe that my teachers
had some kind of hidden agenda to embarrass me but little then I knew that they
were in reality helping me. At my first court hearing, although frightened from
inside, I actually spoke out aloud so much so that I was able to convince the
Judges.
If it wasn’t for my teachers and their constant putting me into the spotlight, I would have never
been able to face court and build up my true confidence.
Really, true teachers always have
best interest of their students at heart. Today, it is such a relief for me that I am be able to
properly convey my ideas to my audience.
Education is a blessing, while we are students
we don’t exactly understand the extent of this blessing. However, once you get into your
professional/ adult then only you realize that education is really the answer
to all our prayers.
You have education, you have freedom. It is such a gift that
my parents and family understood the importance of education and they provided
the best possible opportunities for me to learn. And above all, to have the
resources that have made it easy for me to acquire quality education.
Have a great weekend!
Adios Amigos!
Sonya Syed. (Day 410)
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