Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase. It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions. This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...
I waited for almost four hours before I had my lunch/dinner and then began waiting for the weekend to come and do some shopping which has been postponed for quite some time. Waiting : waiting for your turn at the bank, waiting for the food to get cooked, waiting for electricity to be resumed, waiting for the red light to turn green on the road, waiting for the right time to come, waiting for everything to settle into its place- there is so much waiting in our lives on every single day that it would be safe to say that ninety percent of our lives we are actually waiting for something or for someone. Then the question would follow; what is more important whether waiting itself or our mental state while we are waiting; and if we are composed or impatient for the outcome. Well, most of them the gap or vacuum or the space which we have to endure while we await for someone or something becomes unbearable. Even though we might be well aware that the object of our desire is close to us howe...