Sonya Syed

All of us have our brilliant moments and also there are times when we have lost it completely, although in my current situation the latter would suit me perfectly. Sometimes the simplest of actions are exaggerated by our thinking and we tend to over-estimate their impact on our lives; and finally when we have conducted those actions we could breath a sigh of relief irrespective of the nature of outcome. Nevertheless, when I would be able to breathe my relief I don’t know. There has been a lot of work going on in my mind these days- if I try and follow my instincts my logical mind would jump in with its cheap, loud and argumentative voice and informs me about the triviality of things. It tells me to be a 100% sure that I will get some benefit from my actions; it wants me to live my life today in the shadows of my past experience; it tells me only to believe what I can see or hear or touch with my physical senses; it tells me not to have faith in the unseen or the unknown; it ind...

After a long day mind is finally obtaining some focus which it lacked for some time. Over using or going beyond certain justified limits mentally always exhausts the brain cells but once this overwork is stopped everything falls into its perspective. Although I woke up sluggish this morning; however, managed to perform all the tasks which were required, then it was ten brief minutes in the sunlight to acquire my Vitamin D and what a brilliant time it was. To breath in the warmth and love of the sun, its rays beaming with tenderness. These things on the face appear to be rather insignificant yet if we could feel their subtlety with some degree of stillness would give us astounding outcomes; mind, body and the spirit all are re-energized. The law and order situation prevailing in the city are a matter of concern for all of us, one could only hope and pray that the concerned authorities take immediate timely action and once again we could as a nation leave in peace and harmony...

Something absolutely magical happened with me today and I very much would like to share it will all of you. I bought a clothing material for myself few days ago and wanted to stitch it in a particular design; however, I needed a sample picture of that design and the only way I could get that was from the internet. But as usual due to my laziness I was reluctant to open my PC, surf the net and take the print out. Today, in the afternoon as I came out of my room I saw on the dining table latest copy of an exclusive magazine which had that particular design and many others. The amazing or spooky part is that no one in the house has either bought or ordered that magazine yet its brand new issue in the most pristine condition was just lying in our garage. All I could say is that it has fallen directly from the sky, right into my lap. At first I was trying to figure out how this has happened because nobody else besides me both in my family and in friends circle was aware th...

What a day I had, a beautiful one on the exterior but within I lacked the kick, the energy and most of the time my concentration. But now as I sit before my PC with the intention of connecting with you all I could sense in myself a glimpse of peace especially after I had my good o’le cup of cold coffee. As I inscribe these words, light cold breeze is titillating my face and the quietude outside is enthralling the mind. So I take two deep breadths and try my best to bring focus on the matter at hand. Its been a week where I have met new faces and fortunately the experiences of their proximity is a positive one as well. However, few old faces remain engraved in mind and I only wonder when and how would I be able to meet them, if I meet them at all. Has anyone of you experienced ten emotions in one go, I think not and to be honest it is neither a wonderful feeling. As we grow up our perspective alters completely about many of the things which we once considered crucial or vita...

It is such an enormous relief to finally get over with the test and all the preparations which goes along with it. Although this test was no university or college examination however it is about a subject which I have studied on my very own initiative and now I await as to what might the future holds for me. Sometimes the hindrances of time and space are dissolved; even though we are not in the proximity of some people yet whenever either or both of us want we could be together and then there is no need for our physical presence, just being with someone in mind and spirit suffices. I have experienced this wonder with my mother, my other family members and friends and every time I go through it I cannot but feel energized and peaceful. Weather is changing quietly, the heat, the humidity of day and night is transforming into a pleasant wintry season. It is now the time when woollies are taken out from the storage; a time when men on handcarts in the street outside our homes would call ...

It’s the most awaited day tomorrow and I have butterflies in my stomach, coupled with anxiety pangs. It is weird that even after spending a lifetime with tests and exams one still become anxious-nervous. I have been not at all looking forward for my test day yet it is finally here; I would definitely need all your prayers. I had the most gastronomic delight in lunch today and all its credit goes to my Mom who prepared the most delicious prawn biryani. Of course I ate beyond my normal limits and as a consequence I am all relaxed and laid-back in body but my mind is far away from being relaxed. I need to revise everything and I need energy, the irony is I cant take coffee or my favourite green tea as it would leave me in insomnia- so God Bless me!! Sorry for this brief post and impersonal post but the time calls for other commitments as well, so I would take your leave darlings… Good Evening and take care….. Sonya. (Day 138/139)

Long working days with erratic sleeping habits could continue smoothly for a little while only and then comes the spiraling down period. The most crucial aspect of life: sleep , when gets ignored or bullied it could give some unhealthy results and this is what happened in my case. I, for so long have been going to sleep pass the due bedtime and as a consequence I am unable to concentrate or focus on any thing now, my taste buds are upset and my memory is affected as well; most of the time I feel drowsy or just want to sleep. So please if any of you does the same thing with your sleep then do take care of yourself. All these apparently little things are not that inconsequential after all, because of the seemingly trivial things in life could prove vital to your existence. I have a burning desire to learn playing a guitar yet I could not find an appropriate teacher. It is such an irony that whenever we want something desperately in our lives it drifts farther away from us, may be our d...