Sonya Syed

As my PC was opening up today, in my usual restlessness I clicked and started three programs simultaneously so as a consequence everything got stuck; after a couple of minutes finally everything started one by one. I suddenly realized that this is exactly what I do in my life; I want everything in my life to appear in a second and I simply do not possess the “patience for waiting”. Then what comes out as a result is more waiting spiced up with frustration, a pitfall with humans. It has become a routine with me for not being an irregular at the blog; by the way it is one of the things which I truly cherish in my life. Yet my unusually new and erratic sleep patterns developed very recently are taking over my most relaxing activity, the blog. I get two to three deep sleep calls lasting from 5 to 40 minutes; the first one around 5 pm, the second one between 6 to 7 pm and the last but not least one at exactly 9 pm. The sleep which I encounter at these times is unusual because I feel a...

I was absolutely energized as I decided to write today’s post but the moment I sat down sudden wave of deep sleep entered and it is only 9 pm. Tomorrow a new day and some new adventures are on their way, irrespective of the outcome I am taking on the challenge and hope to be my best. I guess this is what should be our modus operandi in every deed, we waste so much of our energy and focus in worrying about the end result, about winning or loosing, and ignoring completely the journey which takes us to that outcome. Everything to us is a means to an end and in this way we reduce the sanctity of all those moments which leads us to the end. So should we not make any goal or think for the future; of course not. We must keep it in our minds whatever we want to achieve nevertheless make it secondary and the journey our primary aim. Quite a few times I have seen this with me as well as with others that if we get to design something new or do a project or any assignment or even while cooking o...

Rushing things is never a good idea, we do one thing and our mind starts to work on the next thing; at times we multitask nevertheless the end product in such a over-worked state is always below average. Currently five things are simultaneously going on in my poor little brain and I really hope to do justice to all of them.   Past few days I have not been busy but plain lazy I wanted to desperately write the posts yet it became difficult and still I slept late and woke up early, cheers to my efforts to go to bed by 10:30: pm. I have seen this so many times with me that whenever I intentionally make an effort to do something whether it is sleeping early or doing any chore or especially taking care of my hair and hopelessly trying to style them I fail miserably. Probably my desperation becomes just too much so instead of attracting what I want I repel it. With Eid passed so swiftly and the year almost coming to an end and the fact it has been an year since I began wri...

What has my past days’ been is indeed a mind-boggling experience; nevertheless, the content of the matter is such that it would be wise to keep things with me until I am well-equipped with the right words to explain. Human being is by far the most complicated specie, our mind which is an amazing gift could become a mystery and an entire life-time is spent or wasted in trying to uncover its intricacies. Recently I have observed this on both personal level as well as a general observation that we get attached to a particular place or a memory or to an illness on a sub-conscious-level. Even though we say that we want to discard that memory or we want a treatment, yet to completely give up that illness or release that memory becomes a subconscious threat to our identity. Who would I be if I don’t have that particular ailment or nobody would care for me after I get well? Or if I can some how trap myself in that memory I can create fantastical stories out of it and would be able to hold mys...

Finally I made it to post today and quite early than my usual timings; it is comforting to know that everything is taken care of within the due time. I am desperately trying to make my day organized which means going to bed early and rising up a little more earlier with all the zest. I envy those who have a routine and they live by it, irrespective of what goes around them nothing hampers their schedule which they have set up for themselves.   After a gap of more than a month I have gone back to my workout routine. I need to do my exercise the first thing in the morning and get it out of my way. However to wake up early one has to sleep early as well or else there would be no concentration no focus and I get into the zombie mode, when I see but I really don’t see, when I am hearing yet not really listening.   My suggestion to all those who want to exercise is that, please don’t overdo anything in your enthusiasm like me because I got so excited that I didn’t even realized...

So winter has officially begun in Karachi, and what a pleasant weather it is. There has been some rain in the neighbouring cities so Karachi by default gets to experience the after effects of the rain. Winter for some strange reason is my favourite season, not the below zero degree freezing one but when there is slight chilliness with a tinge of light rain. Personally it is also the time when I get taken over by an eating monster, so I eat non-stop whenever I get the chance. I take a full meal and couple of hours pass so again I need to eat. The eastern food and in particular a well-prepared very spicy biryani is worth dying for and also a personal favourite of mine. I must admit that being a food faddiest, a quality which I am not proud off, becomes a blessing in disguise. Thankfully I don’t like sweet dishes or deserts in any form in fact I can say that I don’t even have the taste buds to try anything sweet. Let alone sweets I cannot eat anything which is made of yogurt, milk or egg...

Yesterday I was confident that I would write something but the moment I began writing nothing made sense so I decided to just chill and doze off in the comforts of my duvet. Eid came and Eid went with the blink of an eye and so rapidly have all the holidays passed. With all the laziness and nothingness holidays bring I still believe that we do need to get back to the hustle and bustle of life, to the normalcy or whatever it would mean to us. I had an Eid party at work today, it was real fun and everyone looked great, all dressed up and all. Its always nice to meet people at personal level rather than professionally. I for one love to meet people in their homes, they are always different in the comforts and security of their cocoon, their home. Even if you get to meet the people at work in some private function or wedding or dinner with their families around, you would always get the chance to witness their informal self and the easiness with which they mingle with everyone else is a ...