Sonya Syed

  Today I wanted to write about something unconventional to my posts but as its 10.30 pm and due to my extreme sleepiness I cannot even locate keys on the keyboard. Probably you might find today’s post brief and my true apologizes for this, but I am now committing to this blog and to do that I have write regularly. Tomorrow there shall be another day with new ideas and crisp feelings which reminds me I have to cook some absolutely crispy junk food for the younger lot at home. As for me I need to call it a night. Good Night my dear ones! Sonya. Day (202)

Before anything else get into my way I would like to give my humble gratitude and lots of love to all my dearest readers for their affections for my earlier post “To Dad With Love”. Thank you all for your wonderful and encouraging messages, phone calls & emails; for making me realize that I have the love and support of you all. Also I had some interesting discoveries about myself during that period. One came out from my friend when she said that she was astonished to see that I have such an emotional side to my personality. I wonder what others would think of me if my friend believes that I am so non-emotional person. True as it is, that I am an emotional person; however, I feel better when I say that during the time of any decision-making I am quite logical and rational.     Anyways it feels wonderful to be back on the blog and to be with all of you. Last time when I wrote I was going through a lot of mental & emotional   chaos, physical pains so ...

Dearest Abbu, " I ts been two years from today when you completed your journey in this world and left us to meet your Creator to experience something wonderful. In an instant I felt a thousand emotions in my heart for you and amazingly there was not a bit of depression or sadness, a few tears though which tried to find their way out. Nevertheless in the background I felt immense peace, joy and love because I know for sure that you are in the best place. Since last week I was extremely confused and restless for no particular reason, I cried for half an hour at night on two consecutive days for no apparent cause. In my dreams I saw myself giving healing to my cousins/ sisters Aleyna, Marrium, Kanwal, Aiman. Two days ago I saw you very young and looking handsome, as usual, in my dreams. I could not understand as to what was happening to me because I could not feel any pain or grief or depression but now it all makes sense ...

Wow! My life has seemed to fly with the speed of a rocket, and I have been unsuccessful to register any of it. For about a week or more circumstances in my life have altered dramatically: please note that I am neither married nor engaged, yet. It all relates to my work. I feel as I have reached a Full Circle moment in my life. Well, whatever it is whether for long term or temporarily, all I have to do is to give my 100% and be authentic. I have learned that instead of telling God, this or that is my purpose, I always ask that Supreme Intelligence as to what He wants from me. When you are so full of ideas or thoughts of how things should or shouldn’t be then you interfere with His plans. So I have learned not to bombard my life with my own thoughts or ideas and simply to move out of my way . For such a long time I have been living in the Island of my comfort zone, meeting or not meeting people, doing or not doing anything, meditating, practicing consciousness. Then few mo...

Who would have thought that my next post will be a month later, but what can I say when my mind refused to give me any creative or even writable matter. If I use my laptop for only an hour I get neck pain and then the entire back begins to hurt. Rather than getting me in painful situations my mind blocked everything which I can write or share with all of you. However, now things are better so here I am once again. A word of advice to all laptop users that if we you have any headaches or backaches or cervical problems then meet a doctor and please switch to old school i.e.“ personal computers”. So much for the dissatisfaction, when I had a PC I was dying to get a laptop and now when I have a laptop I will be returning to PC soon. Yesterday I met a lady, who is a multimillionaire with husband, children and even grand children; with sound business in Karachi yet she is seeing two psychiatrists for her depression. Then I know a girl, being the bread earner in the family of 12 peop...

Damsel is out of her distress, accepted everything with dignity and is now looking for brighter side of matters. I have been quite busy with some work at home, some cooking requests from family and by the time I was with myself, I just wanted to sleep. Today in my sheer stupidity I accidentally closed my mobile when I was expecting a highly important call. There were hundreds of marketing and product promotion sms’s continuously coming in the evening and in order to concentrate on my work I decided to switch off the mobile and open it within few minutes. Probably an hour elapsed when I discovered that I completely forgot to switch on my phone but by then the possibility of receiving that call also vanished. Time management is crucial. Yet I am confident that I will receive that call- if not today, then tomorrow or day after tomorrow but I shall receive it and this is my faith..Insha Allah. The yoga instructor to whom I went to study yoga, told me that I am an Escaper . He s...

Sunday went merrily amidst the heat and then on Monday things became a bit shaky. By night I received two unexpected news and both were sort of rejections for me; something which my ego didn’t take too well. I felt gushing emotions, ache in my knees, back and cervical pains. I thought instead of falling in the trap of my mind and its chatter lets make into an opportunity to go deeper in consciousness and enlightenment. Lets watch my thoughts (how mind labels or judge the situation), feel all the emotions and observe my body reactions. As I became an alert witness to my thoughts and emotions, I felt aches in my knee joints. In the middle of all this, I realized that if I did not continue this duality I will succumb to my thoughts and will get arthritis. This is what exactly happens when you have stress in your life, your mind continually define, label and judge the situation and the people in it. Since we do not become the alert observer of our thoughts so we mistakenly take our minds...