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Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase.   It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions.  This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...

Day 244

I write in early today because I think it is better to write whenever I get time during the day; in the late evening hours energy is often exhausted. Brinjal / eggplant (began) slightly fried in chickpea flour (besan) is amazing with boiled rice and pulses, our staple diet. Managing work from home gives advantage of eating a proper lunch. Although when I work at office far from home the option of lunch is always there, but either the food available has fried items in the menu or if something is taken from home it is anything but rice. Quite a few times at work I gave in to the temptation of having biryani only to struggle afterwards with drowsiness.  Those wonderful carbohydrates in rice not only relaxes but make me very sleepy and if there is a meeting immediately after lunch I always  apprehend falling asleep in the midst of the meeting.  Sometimes I did sleep but with open eyes and every now and then during the meeting I would ask either a smart or a dumb qu...

Global warming, myth or reality?

I returned to the blog after a bit of gap but it was essential. Coming day after another drains one of topics; I prefer to write when posts come to me fluently. On the other hand if I have to think hard before writing then this a sign for me to stop, rest, recuperate and return only when there is a natural flow. If in future my posts are not published for few days, then it is merely my resting time only return with a fresh mind. Today there are two separate posts one named Sarwana Cottage and this one. Many times I heard about global warming or green houses but never paid any heed nor tried to understand it and thought that it was not my problem. But as I heard some people talking about it I paid attention. So what is global warming by the way? Well as I understood it, it is a straightforward concept. The carbon dioxide (CO2) present in the air from power plants, our fridges, air conditioners, cars, pollution, and various other sources get absorbed in the seas...

Sarwana Cottage

First of all, thank you so much for your interest in my blog and second I apologize for not being able to respond to your interests about Sarwana Cottage in my earlier post “F.R.I.E.N.D.S”. For ages humans have been intrigued by the idea of supernatural entities, ghosts or spirits and it is this curiosity which leads them sometimes to actually experiencing these phenomenon. However, mostly our mind due this natural curiosity tends to see or hear things which are not there.  (I would like to clarify that I am not a professional ghost hunter and many years ago on hearing so much about Sarwana Cottage I went there with my friend for fun purpose only. However, looking back I think it was very stupid of us to visit such places as we could have ended up in dire consequences because more than the ghosts’ humans with criminal minds are dangerous these days. The risks involved were incredibly high for going alone like that, we did not inform nor had any adults with us when we w...

Perspectives

You prepare yourself, move everything out of the way and design your entire day keeping in mind one important task. Then as you are all set to perform the task you come to know that it has been postponed. I don’t about all of you but I get a headache to have all my energies wasted for nothing. Throughout the afternoon I was feeling terrible because I missed out a meeting. Just few minutes earlier I took a tiny pinch of salt, ate a fruit, rolled the golf ball between both my palms (to activate pressure points on my hands) and to my surprise the intensity of headache is significantly reduced. Now I merely have a little sensation on the forehead and that is bearable. I guess the sodium and chloride in salt balanced the electrolytes of my brain. Anyways the task left out today is planned for tomorrow and I hope that it goes well. (People suffering from hypertension should consult their physician first if they can have tiny pinch of salt occasionally for serious headaches or migr...

Weight Insights (2nd- Facing my fears)

Facing my fears I got over my most dreaded activity, I joined the gym. Although it was more of a demo session but I ended up doing a bit of work there. I always had this phobia about gym’s weight and strength training side. Although about 8 years ago when I actually thought of doing any kind of exercise I joined a gym for its group session of yoga and aerobics because the machines intimidated me. I thought how can someone on their own figure out these big machines and loose weight but what I didn’t knew was that there are trainers assigned to every member for assistance. As I entered the main area where they had all the humungous treadmills and God knows how many other weight training machines, I was saying to myself:  wha t the hell am I doing here ? First I started whining about my ankle or knee aches and like a child refused everything my trainer offered me to work out. I cannot believe the level of my resistance which I displayed there; I had negative...

Day 239

When brain muscles are too tensed words doesn’t seem to come forth easily. Tensed because I feel drowsy and I’m forcefully keeping myself awake to write today’s post. Nothing significant is manifesting though I’m trying my best to write something that might interests you but still I fail myself. No TV, no news, no updates on anyone’s wedding; just plain me without any words. There are days when I would just feel lethargic without any reason. Just don’t want to do anything and become laid back. It is never a welcome feeling but this is what I have and I guess I have no option but to feel it fully. Or may be I worry too much or probably I like to worry all the time. The moment somebody leaves home my anxiety gets ignited and as clocks tick and tick my anxiety level rises and rises. Some people like me are born with this anxiety feeling though they express it in other forms, yet it is there at the back of our minds. The worst thing about any feeling is ...

Surprises

Against my daily routine I switched on TV in morning and by chance landed on CNN where in their segment World Sports they showed a report on Karachi’s Liyari area. I had no idea that for years, Liyari has been producing world class boxers.   For a moment my eyes couldn’t believe what I just saw. I was pleasantly surprised. Children and young adults participating in boxing sports amidst of the unrest and disturbances which surrounds this locality. Those children and adults were funded to study and get trained on community basis with little or no support from either the public or private sector. Then there are also excellent football players belonging to the same area Liyari. Another pleasant surprise which came is my favorite Pakistani actress Reema getting married this month. I am truly happy for this lady she has worked hard to be where she is today. Although I don’t know her personally but I have seen her personality transformed over the years. The first movie wh...