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Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase.   It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions.  This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...

All the world's a stage

Before we get on with the main post I would address few queries regarding first chapter of the story which I published yesterday. Dear reader, if you would notice when Akev narrated the story he began by saying that Sheherzad was known for her beauty. You see it was quite common in earlier times that Queens became famous for their beauty or wisdom or both, and their fame was not limited to their country but it extended throughout the world, without any media. In fact in those days many wars were fought just to marry a beautiful queen. Cleopatra was and still famous for her beauty, Queen of Sheeba (Queen Bilqis) became renowned in her times for wisdom & Mughal Empress Nur Jehan was recognized for her ability to rule. Then there was Lakshmi Bai, the Rani of Jhansi who was famous for her courage and rebel against the British Raj . History is full of such examples.  Likewise our Arhan was also aware of the beauty of Sheherzad as was everybody in the Kingdom of Prussia...

Sheherzad and the Lumberjack- My First Story

At last, after a bit of trimming and embellishing the story is now taking some shape. Today I am publishing its first chapter; you can find it on the new page titled Sheherzad and the Lumberjack on this blog. Do read it and give me your remarks. Its been so long that we Karachites patiently waited for rain and today when it happened the joy it gave us is beyond words. Heat is reduced considerably, weather is lite but we wish for more. Ok today I shall be brief because all my energies are utilized in the story. Take care. Sweet Dreams.. Sonya. (Day 350)

Wishes & a story

My long awaited desire has been fulfilled, today I went for my eye check up and have been told that from now on I would be wearing eye glasses while reading, driving and most of the time to relive the discomfort. Although with grace of God the eye-sight is still 6/6 but I need to protect my eyes from the reflection of light on the computer screen. We need to be very careful before we wish for something. When I was 10 years old I saw my elder cousin who used to wear plain eye glasses and that gave her a persona, for some reason I liked it so much that I bought a pair of plain eye glasses for myself, however, I couldn’t wear them for more than few minutes because they gave me a headache. So today when my long awaited wish has been granted I am more than happy, although I could have relived the discomfort by doing acupressure on eye points but no I was keen to have a new specs; however, this time I needed a solid reason for buying my favorite pair. I know I really sound sill...

Friends and beyond…..

Many thanks to my friends and all of you for your warm comments and sharing your beautiful moments with us. Friends, I believe is one such topic which always strikes some deep chord of our hearts. I always cherish friendship because this is the relationship which we make ourselves and sometimes it lasts for a life time. There have been moments, some tough times in my life and had there not been the support of my friends it would have been difficult for me to make it through. So I owe a lot to my family and friends for putting up with me. These days for one reason or the other I am spending my time mostly with teenagers or young adults who are entering into 20’s. Either we take boys or girls I see most of them in depression or in some unknown anxiety. Some concern about their financial situation while others worry about their career and studies. Reason could be many but their feelings are almost the same, that they don’t feel good. I do my best to befriend and co...

To friends

For quite some time I deliberately refrained from talking about negative things with my friends. Neither I allowed them nor did I give myself the liberty to discuss problematic situations. I believe that the more you focus on something with all your energy the more it will become your reality. Focus on good things and be grateful and you would receive more of the same. However, yesterday it occurred to me that when we share something painful with our friends its purpose is not to spread negativity rather its aim is to share and get rid of all that is distressing. We do need to bring out what is bothering us or else it will keep bubbling, causing far more damage. Our real friends are not only our companions but they perform many roles in our life. If we are doing something harmful then they become our parents and stop us from acting stupid. When we have heartbreak our friend nurses our wounds with care. When we need to share our secrets and beautiful moments they become...

Rains....

Finally! It rained in Karachi the moment we all have been waiting for, and what a beautiful view it was in the early hours of morning. Everything glistened; flowers blossomed to the fullest and it was a sheer delight to witness this magnificence.   For me rains always have a very special place and even more special affect. I could love rain for the rest of my life- shinning roads with the reflection of orange street lights. I wish I could capture this moment with the subtle beauty of it all. I tried taking pictures but they didn’t do justice to the brilliance of the moment. Paint, yes if I could put it in colors to explain my joy then that would mean a world to me. Recently I have myself in love with painting, the colors and light; so in the search I found some wonderful paintings. Although I do not possess in depth knowledge about art; to me anything that touches your heart is art. Keeping in view my feelings I am posting some exquisite depiction of rains. ...

Operation cleanup

Sitting in the company of my computer for hours is bit burdensome on my poor back and eyes. Today I finally decided to complete all the work that has been pending for some weeks and take up the most excruciating task of cleaning up PC hard-drive. This task of cleaning up I have deliberately delayed for months, no for years. So today I gathered all my stamina and said grace, a prayer of gratitude, before I began the clean up. To my surprise what I assumed as impossible not only became very easy for me but it gave me immense joy and the feeling of freedom. To my surprise I cleaned up more than 25,000 items collectively both from my PC hard-drive and USB. These files were sitting in the computer for some six years now and I just couldn’t gather the time or the courage to check every item and get rid of the unwanted ones. I wish that we humans could have such system of cleaning up of our minds and hearts. I wish we could go into depth of our minds where we can locate all th...