Allhumdolillah! I am at a much better place since my last post with series of lab tests, utlrasounds, a mammogram and some other really scary tests, and a gut wrenching anxiety of results. I am doing well thankfully everything was clear except low iron levels with vitamin d3 deficiency. These deficiencies are now on their way to recovery. It is worth noting that I have been struggling with intense brain and physical fatigue since 2019 but not a single doctor was able to identify my problem. Once somebody is diagnosed with depression or anxiety then every health issue they complain about is looked from the psychological lenses. Nobody asked me to check iron, vitamin b12 or vitamin d3 deficiencies even my mum who is a dermatologist always assured me that I am fine and this weakness is just a phase. It was a phase alright, it engulfed almost 8 years of my life pushed back my career and research ambitions. This is not the case alone with me but there are many people who silentl...
All my students are quite content with me today for I have given each one of them either an A+ or an A on their assignments. More than their happiness, I am glad that they are getting my point. Sometimes while I am teaching I have this outer body experience where I feel as if I am watching myself from a distance, as a person addressing different mix of audience with all the clarity of ideas and expression. I have come a long way from a being person who had an intense fear of public speaking to who I am today. Throughout my school life, my teachers had only one remark for me ‘lack of confidence’ in all my report cards. And then came my BBA where for the first time I had to do presentations in front of my class of 25 pupils. My knees used to shiver from fear, I had severe cold sweat attacks whenever my teachers asked me to speak. At times couple of my teachers as soon as they entered the class would announce that ' today we are going to ma...